Afraid?
Of what?
Of what's inside of me.
How evil
Dangerous
Destructive
Could it be?
I am my own careful detective
Investigating parts of me
That I myself have hid
For years quite stubbornly
Will I be able to rejoin
All parts of me together?
Will I be able to enjoy
The wholeness then forever?
It's not as easy to put into words
It feels as if I had maybe two hearts
There's one that tries to be so nice
But underneath it lies...
Another one, the dark and rough,
That one was made by times so tough
That really it just cannot smile
It has its own dark heavy style
I'm digging deep to see
My fear is growing though
That's how I managed to ignore
My darkness for so long
But finally, for feelings' sake,
I gotta stop before it's late
I need to see and to admit
Who am I underneath the dry smile
That I have been practicing for a long while
Scared of losing myself?
Maybe.
But I gotta risk it,
Don't I?
After all I just know
That my darkest side
Does deserve the attention
Of my soul and mind
It's a part of me
I'll express it in arts
Before my dry fake smile
Dries out both of my hearts.
A human trying to connect to suppressed feelings
