You drove me to this,
Your fault,
No choice for me,
Always a choice but not here
Not now somehow, you've decided this.
Your doing.

I press the blade down gently,
Run the cold edge along the
Popping vein of my wrist,
Blood, spewing out,
Like an uncontrollable fountain.

It hurts at first, stings,
But then you get used to it,
Feels good. An equilibrium of pure sensation
Not to mention the satisfaction,
Your, pure.

Demons drained out of me
A wondrous feeling, now I see!
But now the feeling is gone,
It just hurts as its always done,
The pain rises my fingers numb,
I collapse, my skin cold, lips blue,
As far as movement there was nothing i could do.

And now my corpse lay here to rest,
Did i fail one of life's tests?
This empty feeling, it's nothing new,
Now forever my dear, i shall be thinking of you.

I swore I'd love you until my last breath
This weapon in my hand won't do a **** thing unless I let it
It can't hurt me or take my life
It's only a gun or a knife
Which to choose isn't a hard choice
For neither is mine, I'm gonna drink this bottle
Till there's nothing left
Till the pain of every memory fades away
No more cuts and no more buts
I'm not gonna say I can't cause you know I can
Waiting for the moment when -
Everything is gone
No more pain, no more emotion, no more anything
Nothing
A void consumes my soul
As I drink deep from this bottle and all others like it
Hoping to drown out my sorrows
I realize one thing
They're all beacuse of one person
One mistake -
You
I drink till the stars burn out Everything's gone and I fade into the blackness
Till I'm six feet underground
No more ache in my chest begging for more
Just me and the solid earth around me
No light but that before I died
Before I took my life with the bottle
My last words hardly audible
No one was around to hear "I love you"
I loved you with my last breath
Though I'm no longer here I love you