I am not strong enough to make you proud
I try but cannot stop the tears
There is no way to fight the pain
This is worse than my scariest fears
I swear I am trying to hold it back
I am trying to keep my heart in one piece
It's beat sounds so sad and slow
I start to worry it might cease
I am alone, I am empty
Clinging to tattered remnants of what we had
Replay your voice inside my head
Until it's melody drives me mad
I am going insane without you
Need to hold you close once more
I keep hoping you will change your mind
Show up one day at my door
Can't you see I am working hard to change?
Please tell me what you want me to do
I wish I was angry, wish I felt hate
All I can say is, well, I miss you
Written 12/26/12