Looking out the window
with the AC covering my back
and I see everything that I lack.

Such a shut in. I'm a sin
and I'm dipped right in this,
but it didn't ever drop me deep enough
to lose it, but I know this
is just the beginning
of a life shut down by all this corruption.
The cells in my body are turning
and my words are covered in a different color.
So come and get me when they reach you.

I'm looking out the window
with the AC covering my back
and all I see is everything that I lack.
From all the happys and the joys
all I have is the sound of your voice,
but you're not here and you were never here.

I'm ripped apart and
I'm stuck in a phase of demolition
of my heart and all my principals.
You could say I'm full of this need to destroy
everything in my own being,
just to see exactly what it feels like.
I'm a messed up man and
I'll beat myself until I can barely stand.
Put me on this battlefield,
but don't blame me when I get shot.

I'm looking out the window
with the AC covering my back
and all I see is everything that I lack.
From all the happys and the joys
all I have is the sound of your voice,
but you're not here and you were never here.

You could say I'm in a tug of war
with my pros and my cons on each side.
The loser gets to fall and get drug in the mud,
the loser gets drained of all it's pride.

I'm looking out the window
with the AC covering my back
and all I see is everything that I lack.
From all the happys and the joys
all I have is this fiction with the sound of your voice,
but you're not here...you're not here
and you were never here at all.

I've always wanted to experience,  for once in my lifetime, to truly understand what it feels like to be crying but with joy instead of sadness.

- a.c

We aren't family anymore. We never were.
We are just strangers living together.
In this broken house, with broken souls.

- a.c

The only sound in the darkness
Is the ceaseless whispering
Of my old window unit
It leads me to think of you
How beautiful you looked
Asleep in my arms
It really was silent then
Aside from the mumbled words
That escaped your lips as you slept
I spent that night wondering
What they meant, and savoring
The sound of whispered "I love you"s
Long after you'd fallen asleep

Everything really ***** right now, my eyes are burning like hell and my heart is in a million pieces on the floor. I don't know what to do anymore, my life is quickly tumbling downhill so fast. I just want it all to end.

- a.c

Sometimes, life isn't for everyone.

- a.c

I always stay up all night no matter what to help a friend that is going through a hard time but when it comes down to me.

I have no one.
-a.c

I'm always the strong one,
The positive one,
The funny one.
But strong ones don't mark their skin is secret,
Positive ones don't think about suicide everytime they close their eyes,
And funny ones don't lock themselves in the bathroom and cry to the point where they can't breathe.

So do not call me those labels, because it is simply not true.
-a.c

I love others so much more than I love myself; it kind of disheartens me at how much I would give to others than I would ever to myself.
I wouldn't be able to stand it knowing that someone else is in pain or is hurting but when it comes down to me.

I'm fine.
- a.c

i love you,
you love her,
out of all the things in the world
why does love have to be the most complicated?
- a.c