When I'm With You,
You Stitch A Smile Onto My Face,
And When You Do,
Everything Falls Into Place,
When I'm With You,
The World Spins 8x Faster,
You Are My Saving Grace,
You Make Me Feel Beautiful,
As A Apple Red Aster
But It Always Makes Me Greave,
When You Have To Go,
But Someday Maybe You'll Never Have To Leave,
We'll Be Way Older Though,
People Say We Won't Last,
But If We Don't,
I'll Never Let Go Of This Prestent Which,
Will Be Our Past

Snow Glitters In The Early Morning Light,
The Frosty Tears Of Angels,
Change The Land--And With It--The Creatures,
Stargazers Stare Blankly At The Sky For Answers,
The Cloaks Of Shadows Dip Into The Trees,
Holiday Trees Loom In Windows,
Promising Happiness,
But Screaming Voices Pierce Transparent Glass,
Frightening The Creatures In The Forest,
Snowflakes Lethargically Fall,
They Stare At Themselves Floating To Earth,
In Golden Irised Eyes,
Enchantment Holds A Heart In Soft Palms,
A Soul Kissed By Smooth And Pure Lips,
A Vacant Feeling Being Filled,
A World In A Sub-Conscious Mind,
More Rewarding Then Conscious Activity,
A World Of Dreams,
A World Of Good,
A World Of Truth,
Don't Make Me Leave,
This World Of Enchantment

Fleeing--Speeding Into The Impending Night,
Fleeing--Running Away From All That I Fight,
The Moon And Faint City Lights Lead A Small Trail,
My Heart Facing The Inevatable--Please Do Not Fail,
My Blood Heating,
Rushing,
Expanding In My Veins,
This Rehab Is Better Then Sitting By The Window Pane,
Tears Drying,
Intellect Dying,
My Heart Beating Steady,
And My Lungs Keep Trying,
Teeth Clench,
Human Hatred An Unbarable Stench,
Running Through The Darkness,
Running Freely In The Trees,
I'm Agile,
Fragile,
Though Strong As Stone,
In My Heart I'll Never Be Truly Alone,
As I'm Running,
It's Stunning,
How I Havent Stopped,
Usually I Would've Already Dropped,
Running--Green Irises Peel Back,
Running--A Human Heart Having An Attack,
Sprinting--Tear Filmed Eyes Glistening,
Sprinting--Those Same Eyes Squinting,
Retreating--Don't Try To Hold Me I'm Too Far Gone,
Retreating--My Wounds Have Begun Bleeding,
So Tonight,
Say Goodbye For The Evening

There Are So Many Things I Can Say To You,
To Try To Make It Right,
But Nothing Really Can,
I'm Sorry I Hurt You,
But I Can't Erase The Past,
I'm Sorry You Didn't Hear It From Me,
But This Wound Was Made,
Long Before I Was In Love With You,
It Was A Mistake,
It Really Was,
I Believed A Lie,
And The Outcome Still Haunts Me Today...

I'm Sorry That You Are Mad At Me,
I'll Try To Give You Some Space,
I'm Sorry That I Cant Take Away,
The Heartbreak Which I Gave To You,
If I Could I Would,
Because I Have Never Loved Anyone More,
I Am So So Sorry I Let You Down...

I'm Sorry Because I Saw Those Tears In Your Eyes,
I Knew You Didn't Want To Believe,
I Know,
I'm So Sorry I Let Your Hope Down,
I'm So Sorry,
I Crushed Your Loyal Heart....

I Have Never Been Unfaithful To You,
Please Believe That,
I Never Intended To Hurt You,
I Didnt Try To Keep It A Secret,
Because I Was A Liar,
I Kept It From You Because I Didn't Want,
To Talk About It,
I Didn't Want To Feel That Pain Again,
To See The Hurt I Have Inflected On You,
I Wanted To Move On,
Because He Was My Yesterday,
And You Are My Today,
And I Really Hope,
With All My Heart,
You Will Choose To Be My Tomorrow....

The White Lights On The Christmas Tree,
Replace The Summer Sun,
I Remember Our Summer Together,
It Was Probably My Best One

I've Cared For You--Smiled While I Was Down,
Just So I Could Be Happy With You,
And You--You Just Snarl And Snap,
Make Me Happy You Demand,
And When I Try--You Say I Let You Down,
And As I Write This Tears Climb Up My Throat,
And Blur My Vision,
And I Know--This Isn't Right

I Was So Excited For The Snow To Come,
Fantasizing About Buliding Snowmen,
And Silently Sipping Hot Cocoa While Snuggling,
But Now, As The Snow Piles,
2-3--And Now 10 Inches,
I Somberly Lay With Paled Skin,
The Last Remnant Of My First Happy Summer Gone,
And With Lips Straight And Firm,
Hair Black As The Coal Eyes Of The Snowman Frosty,
I Wonder--Why Am I Losing Hope For Us?
Because You Ignored Me On Our Anniversary

The Snowflakes Fell Sweet As They Were Silent,
Into A Mass Of Black Flowing Curls,
Though The Sky Was Dark It Was Not Violent,
The Thickets Were White And Creamy As Pearls,
The Flurries Fell Sluggishly--Easily,
They Danced So Elegantly To Their Death,
The Thought Can Change Making You Uneasy,
But That Disappears When They Catch Your Breath,
The Drifts Of Snow Capture The Angelic,
The Flakes Even Transform The Most Vicious,
Nurturing Their Scarred Souls Like A Relic,
The Flurries Are Graceful And Ambitious

The Snow Is Charming, But I Live For Sky,
Winter Mimic--Snow Is What Stars Cry

I've Realized,
I've Slowly Grown To Have A Permanent Scoul,
Which Sits Upon My Face,
Ive Realized,
Every Play Is A Foul,
My Happiness Coming Unlaced,
I'm Tired Of Pep Talks,
I'm Tired Of Encouragement,
Im Tired Of Getting Pelted With Emotional Rocks,
Energy Thinned From No Supply Of Nourishment,
I'm Sorry To Everyone,
Because I Have Grown To Be Bitter,
I'm Angered Because I Feel I Have No Freedom,
I'm Sorry I Am So Bitter

Let Me Be,
I'm Fine With Lying Through My Teeth,
I Don't Care If I'm A Snot,
I'm Tired Of People Pretending They Are Not,
Im Sorry To People Who Accidently Step On Me,
I Yell At You Because I Am Internally Angry,
I'm Sorry For Snapping,
Because I Fantasize About Being In The Woods,
Napping,
I Need To Let It Out,
I Need To Cry,
But You Shout,
If I Even Try,
I'm Sorry To My Friends,
I'm Ready To Burst,
I Promise This Will End,
But I Need To Blow My Fuse First

Let Me Talk To You,
It Will Only Take Me 10 Minutes,
I Need To Scream At You,
I Haven't Forgotten Yet,
I Need To Get Away,
I'm Tired Of These Kinds Of Days,
Pouring Out My Pain On A Blank Page,
I'm Sorry I Am So In Rage,
Its Only Because Every Thorn Wants To Poke,
Where There Is Already A Scrape,
Whenever I Start To Sing I Choke,
I Want To Feel Great,
Just Like The Old Times...

I'm Sorry I'm So Bitter,
I'll Try To Runaway From What I Have Become,
I'm Sorry I'm So Bitter,
I Feel Like Some Kind Of ****,
I'm Sorry Im So Bitter,
I'm Sorry I've Been So Dumb

The Birds And Bees Dance,
Butterflies Flying Too And Fro,
Dancing On Tip-Toe,
Hummingbirds Joining In Romance,
As The Lilacs Beautifully Bloom

Vines Slipped Silently Through A Runged Fence,
Summers Came And Went Yet They Still Twined,
They Wound Themselves Constricting The Metal,
The Slow Moving Warriors Of The Mother Earth,
Gradually They Pull The Man Made Barrier Back,
Back Into The Ancient Beauty Of The Brown Soil,
As The Years Crawled By Into The Growing World

When I First Met Her,
It Wasn't Even Classified As Meeting,
She Was Rude,
Crude,
Was Making Statements That I Could Never Say,
Then The Next Time We Met
It Was At A Crowded Table,
I A Somewhat Shy Girl (Not Really),
Was Invited To Sit Down,
I Was Afraid To Sit With All Those,
Those,
Rough,
Tough People Who Barley Accepted Anyone,
But I Sat And Made Friends,
We Really Didnt Talk All That Much,
And I Moved Away To A Different Table,
But In A Few Months,
I Returned,
And We Became Close,
We Exchanged Numbers,
Had A Few Conversations,
But Then She Told Me,
I Was One Of Her Inspirations,
We Became Close As,
Conjoined Twins,
And Now I Know,
We Will Stick Together Through Thick And Thin

A Ghostly Moon Climbed,
Over A Thick Tree Line,
The Ground Was Covered With Mud,
Adreniline Swam Inside Churning Blood,
A Lip Was Being Bitten,
To Block Back A Scream,
A Story Was Being Written,
Even Though It Was A Dream

Green Eyes Turned To Gold,
Ontop Of Wood,
That Was Rotting,
It Was So Old,
Talons Ripped Through The Moss,
Her Heart Was Being Tossed,
Around In Her Chest,
She Wasn't Human Then,
But She Was At Her Best

A Sly Silhouette,
Crossed Her Path,
She Was Playing Russian Roulette,
But She Faced The Wrath,
She Layed On Her Back,
To Ask For Trust,
Piercing Her Neck,
Teeth Felt Like Tacks,
It Was Hard To Stay Calm
But It Was A Must

The Shadow Realeased Thy Grip,
But It Didnt Let Her Leave Without Blood Drip,
A Cut On Her Sholder,
Left A Scar,
One She Gained Underneath The Stars

She Woke With A Fright,
In The Early Morning Light,
Blankets At The End Of Her Bed,
A Red Hot Pounding In Her Head,
She Looked Down,
And What Did She See?
The Wound On Her Shoulder,
She Had Recived

Poison Running Through My Veins,
Broken Glass On The Window Pain,
Dreams Dead,
And I Am Blamed,
What Did I Do,
To Be Stuck In The Rain,
Romance Growing,
And Trust Fading,
The Ref Blows The Whistle,
It's Time For Some Hating,
Let Me Tell You,
By Procrastinating,
You Can Be Negitave,
And I Can Be Ashamed,
But We Both Know If I Leave,
You'll Never Be The Same

Do You Want Me To Leave,
Are You Pushing Me Away,
We Are Both Of The Leash,
And Starting To Stray,
Don't Try Hurting Me,
I'm Already Broken,
Don't Ask My Opinion,
I Have Already Spoken,
And You Can Go Out,
And Cheat And Smoke And,
I May Never Know,
But I'll Keep Provoking,
If It's True,
I Want To Know,
Do You Want Me To Leave,
Because If You Do,
I Can Go

The Red Leaves Quivered;
Slowly They Began To Die,
In The Changing Breeze

A Crimson Heart Hurt,
In A Wind No Longer Warm;
It No Longer Kind

A Raven Had Called,
Sobbing In A Dying Tree;
The Sun Was Setting

A Full Moon Had Rose,
But The Wolf No Longer Sang,
For She Had No Song

Frost Covered The Earth,
Slowly The Crimpson Faded;
The World All But Ice

*Sydney

The Poet Is An Ordinary Person,
One That Uses Coupons,
Does Loads Of Laundry,
And Scrubs The Dishes,
The Poet Lives In The Body Of Another,
Who Lives Life Through Poetry,
To Understand A World Such As This,
To See The Beauty Everywhere They Go,
The Poet Uses Poetry To Express Love,
To Pour A Glass Of Nectuar From Their Sweet Souls,
To Give A Kiss Of Vocabulary To The World,
The Poet Has The Body Of A Man/Woman,**
But,
They Have A Soul Made From Unspoken *Words

Rarely Anything Is Louder Than The Highway In St. Cloud, Minnesota. Especially On A Sunday Evening Down On The Mississippi River, The Sun Barely Over The Trees. My Bare Feet Exposed To The Cold Of The Warm November Air (Warm For A Minnesota November Mind You). River Mud Squishing Between My Toes, Pink, Five Little Piggies Catching A Cold. Marble Orbs Staring At My Human Stature Through The Withering Underbrush, Waiting For My Metamorphoses. The Scent Of Blood Burns In My Nostrils, The Sad Thing Is, It IsMy Own Which Laces My Sleeves. The Red Moon Wanders The Sky.

Feathers Flapping In Frigid Wind,
Wonderfully White--Smooth As Tin,
Lustrous As The Sun On A Sailfish's Fin,
Frantic Thoughts Calmed By A Pure Grin,
The Cold Pushed Away From My Soft Skin,
By All Of Life's Distant Kin

The Dampness Of My Cheeks Dried,
The Grin Still Shining--Ultimatly Bona Fide,
The Tangled Strings Of My Puppet Carefully Untied,
The Waves Of Destiny A Gentle Tide,
Lapping--Healing My Soul's Battered Sides,
The Stars In There Started To Collide,
Creating Flames--Warming All The Chilling Horrors I've Had To Abide

The Spark In My Eyes Fueled By Flapping Wings,
And My Heart Lulled To Peace By A Symphony Of Strings,
So Joyous I Had To Sing,
And Even Though My Scars Still Sting,
They Are Healing From The Kiss Of Angelic Wings,
My World No Longer Ruled--By The Illuminti King

This Sky Above Our Heads,
Has Seen Death,
Pain,
Blood,
Scars,
Misery,
Destruction,
Frowning Faces,
Tears,
And War,
And Has Lost So Many Friends,
Over Millions Of Years

This Sky Has Seen Hunter's Orange,
And Death's Charcoal,
Has Seen Crimson Red Rain,
And Blue Faces,
This Sky,
Has Seen Misery's Rainbow

This Sky Has Seen Happiness,
Love,
Hate,
Heard Laughter,
And Screams,
Has Housed The People Who Gave Up,
And Housed The People Who Dreamed

This Sky,
Is Tough,
And Cold,
Yet Warm,
And Soft,
Wraped In A Blanket Of Clouds,
Watching Our Microscopic Problems,
Under The Rays Of The Sun And Moon

This Sky Has Been Beaten And Battered,
Until Black And Blue,
Has Seen The Stars,
And Watched Oceans Turned To Deserts

This Sky Has Been Gazed Upon,
Wished Upon,
Studied,
And Cut Through,
Has Been Yelled At,
And Has Heard The Murmers Of Praying People,
Yet,
This Sky,
Has Never Said A Word...

These Red And Black Walls,
Have Seen My Tears To Many Times,
This Out Of Tune Piano,
Has Felt My Shaking Fingers,
Grasping Onto Its Keys For Comfort,
For So Many Months,
My Eyes Are Strained,
Bloodshot And Stinging,
For The Millionth Time,
This Ceiling Has Looked Down Upon,
My Sleepless Slumber,
For Hours,
This Air Has Inhabited My Heaving Lungs,
For To Many Meangless Lives,
A Lesson Learned,
But Not Rewarded,
Returning To The Material Plain,
This Night Sky,
Has Wrapped Me In The Darkness,
For So Many Breathless Seconds,
Why Does This Paint Brush Sit In My Palm,
When The Canvas Is Already Onyx,
Lament,
Lugubrious,
Loved,
Lost,
Why Do Thesw Feelings Spin,
In A Continous Loop,
Why Does History,
Repeat,
Over And Over And Over,
Why Does The Pain Repeat,
Over And Over And Over,
Why Must There Be This Orchestrated,
Cycle Of Falling Down,
Getting Back On Your Feet,
Then Falling Down Again,
Why Must These Faces,
See My Paled Face,
The One Sick,
Of The Circulation Of Secrets,
The One Sick Of The Lies,
The One Who Is So Broken,
Because Everything Good That Comes,
Is Ripped Out Of My Hands

Dormant I Await For His Love To Warm My Frigid Heart,
Ravenous I Prowl His Mind As He Rules Over My Own,
Everyday I Ache Just A Little Bit More, For I've Failed To
Win Him Over, Time After Time, Being So Close--Yet Too Far,
And As I Trudge Closer To His Soul I Feel Just A Bit More Empty,
Under The Influence Of My Own Wanting I Am Battered,
Muttering To Myself, "Why Do You Keep Playing The Game?"
Numerous Of Others Have Fell Into And Lost By The First Round,
Danger Signs Have Not Steered Me Away, I've Been Getting Even Closer,
Searing Pains In My Chest Have Left Me No Option But To Carry
On--Thinking Getting So Close To His Soul Will Relieve My Own,
Nevertheless, Deep Down I Feel Sad, For It's Real Tough Being In Love

*Especially With Your Best Friend

The Light Of The Sunset Shone Upon My Cheeks,
As It Lurched Across Rolling Hills Of Alfalfa,
A Small Cottage Spit Smoke Into The Cedars,
Creating The Illusion Of A Fog Filled Twilight,
My Eyes Filled With The Color Of The Heavens,
My Heart Swelling With The Billows Of Bliss As,
The Wisps Of Clouds Coated The Sky Like Blush,
I Took Care Everytime My Third Eye Blinked For It,
Filled The Quiet Dusk With A Hushed Sound,
And While The Sun Dipped Below The Horizon,
I Knew I Would Remember This Forever

A Wave Of Depression,
I Gave The Impression,
That I Did Not Cry

It Was An Obsession,
That Turned To Agression,
You Said That Your "I Love You",
Was A Lie

You Said I Needed Attention,
But You Were An Infection,
That Was Breaking The Last Ties

So I Looked In My Life's Direction,
I Knew I Only Had One Detention,
I Told Myself I Was To Young To Die

So As I Look At My Reflection,
I Stare At My Complection,
And Say Why, Oh Why, Oh Why

Memories Perfectly Printed In The Pages,
Of A Locked--Leather Backed Book,
I've Repayed My Erie Wages,
And Yet My Pride Is Took,
Misery Formed In Many Different Stages,
Mirrors Reflect A Conversation Piece--The Hook,
Feared Creatures Locked In Steel Cages,
Sadly They Thought I Was A Crook,
Help Written In The Margins--Doleful--Enraged,
Bitter Words Spat In My Face--Look,
Actions And Emotions Staged,
A Mind Mastering Melancholy And Is Shook,
Names And Places Engraved,
The Platter Of Humane Treatment--Perfectly Cooked,
At The Last Paragraph In This Phasing,
Locked Book,
The Words To Be Continued,
Reflect In The Green Eyes,
Of A Caged Being