As I lay in your arms
The same electricity I once knew,
The spark,
that used to light between me and you
Has disappeared.
Gone in a collage of shouts and screams.
Time in time again,
I have devoted myself
to recapture the electricity,
That ran through my fingertips,
as you held my hand
and held your lips close to mine,
urgent and waiting.

Let's let everything fall away when we're together,
Let's loose ourselves
In a mirage of kisses and gazes.

Like we once did.

Just say okay, and we could surf the highest waves
hand in hand, never loosing faith
We could swim the lowest tides, as we gasp for air
you will say you love me
And I you.
We could do cartwheels on the sand
And you will catch me when I fall.
We could see the stars, that will leave us in awe
And though standing so close to a comet with you is definitely reckless
Loving you is even more so, but i'm happy regardless.
So just say okay,
And take my hand;
And just promise you will never loose faith.

To the almost love of my life;
I'm sorry I never made it that far
Or had the guts to say
That all I ever wanted was for you to stay.
Or maybe that was the 'all I ever wanted' of my yesteryears

Because now 'all I ever wanted' was for my fears
To disappear, and fade away
Just like you did so many, many, many, days ago
I never saw you in the halls, or dreamt of your smile

The only thing we said with eyes was, "it's been a while"
You filled me with joy and wiped my liquid sadness away from my face
And I'm sorry, I was too exhausted from the chase
I tried to make you love me, and evidently- our stars never aligned.
The universe never gave you the signs.

Oh darling, you made me lovesick
But now I think of you as no more than my once almost lover
And just a friend from the weeks I try to remember
But all I remember out of those weeks
Was trying to be strong when you made me feel weak
And sometimes, I still think about how our bodies could have crashed like waves.

Ironic, isn't it?
You gave me power yet wore me down
You made me happy when I flew too close to the sun and you made me sing sad songs and form frowns
And this is true, because you will always be, the once almost love of my life..

And maybe this will always **** me.

Insecurities building up
Only 16
under pressure
uncollected and pessimistic
and halls of empty bodies
I resign from this life
please forgive me
goodbye.

I remember the way it felt.
The way it felt to be set on fire.
One simple look...
One simple touch from you and it was as though I could see the flames coursing over my body.
The electricity running through my veins.
You ignited me in the most beautiful way.
You made that spark reappear in my eyes.
You reminded me how it felt to be alive.