Fixation

I know it all too well.

With a quick glance, and a sigh of disgust,

I see you

My withered bony frame.

just go to sleep

just go to sleep
go to sleep
no more crying
no more wondering
no more thinking
just go to sleep

On nights like these
when the rain is pouring hard and the thunder is screaming and howling
I remember you.
I can't almost contain myself from reaching out again
But then I do
I find the will in myself to contain
I am an incandescent light
I am untouchable by rain
thunder
lighting
the wind
and the moon
I am me
most importantly
I am free

Pray for her
Pray with me
Best yet pray for the better days to come
Pray for yourself
Pray for your soul
But don't forget
Pray for the sick
But most importantly
Pray for the dead who can't pray for themselves

You decided to live without me
so live without me you will
I still cherish the happy memories

What I would give to spend just one more day with you in bed

darkness gives a spotlight to the emptiness in my soul
but the morning sun fills in the void

Even if now is not the right time
even if I was never the right girl
I will never forget the taste of your lips on mine
sweet,
turned sour.
I am unchanged.
still me,
despite everything that went wrong.