i do not believe in god
but i do believe in poetry
and for me
maybe poetry is prayer
and the universe
is an unwavering ear
in the shape of a god

you hold back your tears,
honestly, you've been holding them for years.
But you don't have to do that with me,
I promise I will listen, I will see
We will go through the problems,
and figure out answers to solve them.
Even if you feel the world getting bipolar,
you will always have my shoulder.

But you can't cry because you have to be a 'man',
but that is one thing I will never understand.
Who the hell said that crying makes you weak,
just because you aren't afraid to feel, you are a freak?
I love you and I will try to make you understand,
I command these falsehoods to unhand the man

who makes me smile.

giving up on poetry is like
giving up on air
except more painful

holding on to my past is like
my own crown of thorns
that I wear without complaint

having a depressive episode is like
drowning in a black lake of me
but I hate the person I am

being myself is like
the disappointment you feel as a child
when you realize you can't be anything you want.

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

fifteen and blind to
the cruelty of the world
but I am not her