i lost my head
while searching for
my mind

i want to stay up all night
thinking about a pretty boy
i want to look into his eyes
and see the love
that he may or may not have for me
i want my creativity to engulf his heart
i want to see the color flood to his face
when i touch his hand
i coat myself in lavender and rose
hoping to awaken a hunger for me
i want to tell him

love.
it hurts
but it’s freeing

nothing but emptiness.
a black hole filled with sadness
inside out nothingness
consuming me
leaving me with loneliness
i seek revenge.

sadness is hiding away from reality
sorrowful, lost
a fatal flaw
in your own story

the night sky is a herculean mansion of the stars which
glitter in grace, beauty and evanescent
until the dawn overpowers them.

have you ever liked someone so much
you regret everything
because without them, you are nothing