Hoping that you just might know better
Feels like hoping for nothing..almost like waiting for rain in middle of a drought
A thousand clever tricks all up rolled into one BIG lie
You mind ****** the reality out of me
True colors left unseen...Soul drained after all these years wasted
Living in make believe land Was where I was found
With flowers pushed slowly down my throat
Lies crawled up to the pits of my stomach, tightening every muscle along its path
Why was my love unread?
I never asked because I was played
You had me for a fool you sick son of *****
Finally enough of you was enough for me to walk away
And the bullet in your heart was just a little goodbye *gift

Who knew what loves you most
breaks you so hard
Shatters you to a million pieces
and when you realize
just how much they mean
even the  tiny  fragments
aren't enough to love them back
For what they did
For who they are
For how they made you feel
For making your memories
so painstakingly painful
For every moment
Because you can’t keep your eyes closed forever
when you hide everything
Bottled it up
Threw it all away
into the ocean
Who knew the ocean ran in rips and currents
What flows out flows back in
what goes up must come back down
When something like this hurts its hard to fight back........

I found my life in the midnight hour, and the air tasted like my dreams
Totally and completely destroyed the old me, who used to be so afraid
I fell in love as I studied every angle of his perfect face, I knew every curve of his smile
He stole my identity, and changed every part of me
The thirst I felt for him was endless, like water in the desert he left me barren
An unprotected heart is dangerous for a thief in the heat of the darkness  
He gave me life and all he required was my soul, everything that made me
Stole all that made me special, buries my mind until I all I saw was him
Too soon my eyes turned into emptiness, deep inside me I was all his
Every inch of my body was left untouched by his fingertips, stained
All he had to do was never leave me, just stay and I would have been fine

Smashing on the gas pedal going 195 on the highway on route my way
rushing pass by nightmares, trying to catch up with long last dreams
a full tank in my car, radio so loud i can barely hear you in my head now
telling me I'm nothing without you and that I'll never make it



A thousand more miles left to go till i right all the wrongs you did me boy
as i feel the wind in my hair i wonder to myself how i stayed for so long
with you always kicking me down, making me feel like dirt
how did i handle all your punches across my face whenever you pleased
all the threats and all those lies you kept spiting in and out
why the hell did i wake up every mooring with soaking pillows filled my tears



The mirror shows a woman with a black eye and cuts all over a reflection i don't know
raindrops bleeding off my cheeks onto the pictures of us
it's time for a goodbye I'll always remember
I'm going far and there's only room for one
mark the calendar cause today is the last straw there's no life here
the road is my and its never ending
there's no looking back no way no how can't look back now
I found the cure within myself from your disease
Grew stronger the moment I wasn't around you anymore

If I say I love you a million times
It'll never be enough...
Because the feeling?
It's indescribable.
I love you
Is not enough
Compared to this feeling.
It's kind of like unspoken magic.
You leave my heart open every time
Open to this voodoo you cast whenever you smile
And I promise no matter what -
I'll never forget, I'll never change this feeling.
Keep it close to my heart.
We're two worlds apart
Different in so many ways
But the same in every way
But is it worth it?
Hold my hand when you're lost in the dark
I'm willing to accept you such the way you are but can you do same for me ?

Feels like I'm losing my mind

Running out of patients

Cos I don't know what to believe in anymore

Can't you feel this heat, you can't even compare it to hell

This love has got me out of control and it shows

I can hardy see when all my tears start to flow

I count to ten tell myself to breathe but the pain is too much

You punch a hole in my heart when you say I love u

Cos deep down I know its all illusion

You use your kisses to confuses me

It's a **** crime how you have me in your pockets

To use and reuse when all your luck deserts you

Every time I walk away tell myself I'm done

There's always a part of me that won't let me go out the door

Making me go in circles your idea of happiness

Do you like seeing me in chains all locked up to your heat

Why do I say yes when my brain screams hell no

Why do I go back to the beginning of this song when the melodies don't change and all the words are still the same?

I build walls all around my heart; close my eyes from the memories and burn every last picture but at the end of the day my heart just can't leave yours alone

You see my heart has got issues, its sick from every lie you told me, you see these lips full of poison from your unwanted kisses

They say only love can set you free that's why I'm finally saying goodbye
I found myself love, once again the sun sets

I can't hate you but I'm **** sure can't love you, prisoner free at last

Break me .
i dare you to try.
i want to shatter.
i want the pain.
let the sun shine no more.
let the rain pour on my wounds.
like a crumbling cookie.
pull me to pieces.
leave me.broken -unfix-able -worn-out .
because i want the taunts.
i want your words to hurt.
humiliation- disrespect me over and over.
give me something that's.
going to hurt like hell.
like a knife in my heart.
twist the knife until I cry out for more.
give me something.
that's going to make me wish.
that i wasn't alive.
try to break all my walls down .
see if you even leave a dent .
im over caring.compassion.protection .
im so over games.i want the worst you got.
don't hold back now. break me .make me stronger.
let me experience all that you've got
like a whirlwind -hurricane-tornado.
do the damage make it a hit and run if you want .
then leave me.to struggle on my own
leave me to pick my the pieces.
but make it spontaneous.
because i don't want to know its coming.
i don't want to safeguard myself .or shield my heart.
let the full impact hit me like a car.
let your words spill over me like a river.
my villains don't wear outrageous costumes & fly through the sky..