Woke up today with sadness.
Enveloped by the shades of my damask full curtains.
Shadows lurking in my soul,
Shadows deep within my heart, they crawl.

I don't know how can i clearly see,
Where to go, or where life would bring me,
Was this from all the weight i've gained?
Pardon me if i sound too vain.

I tried to walk slowly.
careful not to shake your ground,
careful not wake you up,
careful not to make a sound.

No matter how light my footsteps were,
No matter how soft I tried to exhale,
you still found a way to make me eat my words,
you made me think I'm toxic and insane.

But now you said you cant be with me,
I'm not worth fighting for,
looking back I wished I stood my ground,
when you said Creed is better than Faith no More.

You said you dont want arguments,
arguments that you like to bake from scratch,
the main ingredient: your unfair judgments,
on the way I talk, walk , breathe and act.

You know your way with words,
your tone so cool and calm,
If only I'm deaf I'd think you weren't a ****,
until I heard you want me gone.

Your words pierce like a blunt knife,
painfully tearing through every flesh of my dignity,
I am certain you weren't the person I loved,
'cause he said we'll be together for eternity.

Now that it's all over,
I know you wont even realize I'm gone,
You said it won't make a difference to you
if we end this now and be done.

I will continuously fuel my anger,
making sure I have enough embers of your mistreatments inside.
I'll  burn and stop your memories from poisoning me,
from flooding my soul , my heart, my mind.

On the cobbled stone streets you lead me,
as I walked with disbelief.,
on how beautiful this world I am seeing
its your world, that's where I've been.

Raised our voices, made our point,
cursed in my sleep, I felt alone
you were suddenly someone I despise
until you changed your mood and made it right.

Time passed by, some would say too short
but I found out about all sorts
of your craziness, I argue with my mind,
I slept unhappy I even cried.

I already saw that something in your eyes,
Something's unstable but I said " well, I should try"
I saw how you don't let small things pass
sometimes you're happy sometimes you're mad.


then you stepped into my floody world,
***** streets with sewer openings uncovered.
Yes you did walked those streets with pure disgust,
so opposite of the world you have.

there were times when I felt we're far apart
when spending time together was a job.
your standards reaching past the treshold of all standards
I should try to understand that you're a prince in a pauper disguise.

Though hard I still wanted to see
if you'll stay or  run away from me.
I know its hard for you but you tried
I am so happy that you  tried.

your patience lost, my soul is hungry
was it supposed to be like this?
these little crumbles feeds my uncertainty,
I beg you please stay high with me.