Wanderer

Wanderer Apr 2017

Stop
Mediocre
Pursuit
of
Today

Wanderer Apr 2017

I have so much I want to tell you
I want to tell you
How much I love you
Why I love you
That everything will be okay
That I want to help you through this
I want to explain why
Why things will be good
Why we should be together

But eventually all the words
Just become words
I just am rambling
Telling you things
That don't even pertain

The only words I have found that really matter are
I love you
And I know things will work out

#love #words #him

Wanderer Mar 2017

what love is made of

It wasn't til I uttered the words aloud
That I understood the gravity of what had happened

The whole basis of what he believed in relationships
Demolished in just a conversation

A terrifying realization that could confuse anyone

Leaving him questioning the basis of our relationship
If it was built on unstable ideas and practices

But when I stopped worrying and started thinking

I realized that our relationship was never built
On what his parents had taught him of relationships

We were built on the fact that our goals aligned
That we loved the same things
That he brought out the best in me every day
And that every time I see him I feel happier

Opening the door and treating me with respect
Was not the basis of our relationship

An important piece but not the reason we are together
We did not build a relationship on kindness

We built our relationship on the
Late night conversations of love and loss

We realized we could spend the rest of our lives together
Because we wanted the same things for our life

He did not charm me into love
**We simply fell in love

#love #relationships #him

Wanderer Mar 2017

What Would Your Super Power Be?

at 5 I wanted to fly
soar through the sky
so i could show everyone
that i could do anything

at 9 i wanted to read minds
and learn about all kinds
so that i would never be left out
or feeling unaware

at 15 i wanted to save others
i wanted for everyone to be like a brother
so that the world would be at peace
and love would take over

But at 19 i no longer linger
on just one of these wishes
they change day by day
as they are triggered

Some days I want to fly
high up in the sky
and see all my worries
vanish in the wind

Some days I want to read his mind
know what going on inside
so i could see clearly his worries
and his deepest fears

Some days I want to save others
so I can help those in need
not so i can feel better
but so they can be happier

Today I want to read his mind
Not so I will be all knowing
But so that I know how to soothe his soul
to make his heart happy again
I want to know how to make everything right

#help #fly #save #superpower

Mar 2017

Court

GM

Try not to be scared.
I know you said you don't believe in relationships because every single "real relationship" you've seen has failed
but I promise you we aren't them.
I know you don't think it could work but I promise I will work hard for you.
It's just that I feel the distance when you aren't here, whether its a room, a street, a city.
and that you brought life to this dead soul of mine.
I love you so much and I won't stop reminding you.
So don't be scared because I'm only scared when you aren't here.

Wanderer Mar 2017

A Windy Day

We built a beautiful relationship together
sturdy and effective but also appealing and bright

You watched the relationship
you had modeled ours after
crumble to the ground
and all the flaws revealed

We had both seen this before
but it was different this time
Maybe because our relationship
looked like theirs once had

But what we could have never seen
was all the cracks in their foundation
All the problems
they hid in the basement

relationships don't crumble in a day
they slowly erode away
each crack left unfilled
takes away the stability a little more

the rusted out center
of your parents relationship
left only an outside shell
a gust away from complete destruction

The outside doesn't matter
we aren't doomed for the same fate
just because we used the same bricks
its the upkeep that matters

To have a good relationship you have to fill those cracks
You have to work to make things stable
they don't always come naturally
but the results of working together are incredible

#love #relationships #together