you left me
so i’ll
leave you
the same way.

dead in the night
all alone
dead inside

eyes wide open
glued to the ceiling
gone all mental healing

all the overthinking
praying for redemption
followed by slow blinking
for shame, i'm left with feelings of abnegation.

bad girl music blaring through my head
but it's sad girl hours- day- weeks
I'm not having a good time
I smile for moments when with others
yet have no urge to smile when alone

I'm not having a good time
I think this is all pointless
Why is it all so awful
The good cannot outlast the bad
The good is found dead in a ditch
I dont want to go on
If that means death so be it
Can I just go now
Please
Not much has happened bad and yet
I dont want to do this
Why do I have to live
Its ridiculous
I didn't ask to be born
I don't want it anymore
Call my lazy- call me selfish
Call me ungrateful
I'll take it
But
Those words cannot cushion nor heal
How uninvolved I wish to be with being

If you don't ever wanna see me again
Just tell me
If you don't wanna ever hold me again
Just tell me
If you don't wanna ever be there when everything's going to hell
Just tell me