This is the escape
The only one he seems to have
And yet
He can't find the time
To get out

A bottle
Its where he feels most comfortable
Without feeling anything at all
It helps him escape
Without ever escaping
What a terrible ******* cycle

Feelings race through
Leaving a constant swirl of emotions
Stuck in his head

The lonliness
Is almost overbearable to him
But he seems to hide it well
Because most that see him
Don't ever really seem to tell

Anger affects him different
It comes randomly
For almost no reason at all
Makin him explode at the littlest ****
With the feeling of almost no control

The depression is the worst
Due to the others constantly
Increasing its intenseness

It stays with him
Never leaving and always waiting
Waiting to put him under its spell
And keep him there
Away from everything else

He is stuck with this everyday
Along with many others
Each just trying to make it
Through each day
ALIVE

Hands
Hands everywhere
Of all different sizes and colors

Each one
Goes into another perfectly
Its what they were meant for

While many have another other hand
One they can hold onto
Not me
Im stuck without

Feeling like a little child
Wanting to hold mommy's hand
And never let go
Except its not mommy's that I want
Its hers

I want it so bad
But am no closer to having it
Then when I first met her

Sitting here
Stuck between wanting to be with her
And finding it hard to talk to her

My whole life I've struggled with
Being able to express my emotions
So I do the only thing
I know
              And write

Sun brightens the early morning sky
Blue skies cover the earth like a blanket
But something feels different

The streets are bare
And little to no cars are seen commuting
The world has checked out
With no close sign of returning

The normal we have been used to
Now
Seems like an eternity ago

What we need now
Is positivity and courtesy
From everyone we can
Because we can't get anywhere
Without cooperation

The world may be shattering to pieces
But with the right mindset
We can get through this together
And make the world
Just a bit better
Than it was before

While trying so hard
Nothing seems to happen
No matter how much effort
He seems to put into it

Lonliness
Countinuously haunts him
And keeps him
From escaping

He wants so badly
To at least feel accepted
But
It doesn't seem to happen

So he sits alone
Trying to fill the void
With writing