Three tabbies sitting on my lap
Butterfly flutters then perch on my forehead
Ahh...Nature's loyalty right at my doorstep

they say grief is a silent breeze
like a pang of chill air on tuesday evening
when it pierce right through like a bullet
all strengths coalesced into a collapse

it would be the last thing in my mind
that blue charcoal dimming the february sky
3 months of lovers, how fast they expire
i always wonder, will it actually be alright?

summer come through, late of june
a boy is the last thing my head fixed upon
a soulmate, let alone, when im far from home
must human nature resent process of progress?

now i am walking in the sand, bare feet
i dont even like the beach,
but im too down to climb something i cant even reach
and im too upright to succumb to a fatal destiny

solitude is the best remedy
for only i get to listen to me
in midst of voices and screams, lies clarity
hold on to that wisp of reasons for its sanctity

a theatrical life,
we choose the roles and scenes
it get hysterical at times,
we think we're small when all's but a big screen

i am twenty two and this is maturity
tears fell, chin up and greet everybody
homesick is not a disease
i still get to laugh, i still get to live

crying because the weight of my mother's smile
toughening because of my father's vulnerability
ridiculous jabbers my brothers gone through
all part of what makes me, me

and gratitude is a warm blanket
like a comforting hug on a friday afternoon
when it tug your heartstring,
a hopeful future embrace within

i am thankful for the life i've lived
the good, the bad and everything i've yet to credit
bravery has its own merit
so i'll have a forward courage to live...and believe

a belated gift;
i am celebrating me

The times when you know which elevator will open,
The moment you can guess what's inside the box
And those days when you know what color he will wear.
Some amusing talent of sort.
You also wish you can read his mind
Or feel what is in his heart
But all you are left with is mist.
So you chose to tap the shadows
Embrace the darkness within.
For a moment you don't feel powerless.
Tempt all danger and pleasures hidden away.
And then let it leave you sore and numb
So you won't wait for the morning
And sleep off all those cravings to know him.

letter by letter,
     some of great lust,
     some of espionage,
     and secret meetings.

part film,
part theatre,
part fever dream.

we were woven together somehow,
      like we were characters in a book
      being read out-loud somewhere.

And all my friends laugh at me
All those sleep calls for an alarming ending
All those happiness that I leave
I leave, I left you

The sky's been dreary ever since
February feels never-ending still
I'm here with all clouds of guilts
I can't help missing you out for a reach

Hey, I hope you're doing okay
I hope life treats you better than I do
I love you....
It's true

Hey, don't you feel a pity for me
Don't worry whether I'm eating or not
I'm not yours to care no more...
No more distraught

Every billboard signs spell out your name
you'rE a common Lanky guy
It's hard to Just erase you from my brain
American-made, cHestnut hair, amazin-graze

Green, the grass they're dewy
Like sundates when you were with me
Your eyes lit up a spark of my life
And I burnt your dreams to the ground

I know now, it's life...that's how
We love, we toss and we turn
I turn into something you can't comprehend
I still keep you in fond remembrance

Hey, I hope you're smiling today
It's June, you'll be okay
Sun will shine your freckles again
Without any loss, what's to gain?

Hey, I hope you're laughing with them
May you always stays the same
Love hard, and passionate
All in for someone's worth it

Dungeons-hunting
Treasures-looting
Time, space, and circumstances
Faith, rules, and regulations

No more play and pretend...
Sorry I outgrew your basement
Life full of adventure...just not for me
I can't be forever 19, there's responsibilities

I'm not as priveleged
Life's not as easier on me
You get to still be the same ol' you
But I need to always be brand new

It's a cinch to sever ties, holding your hand
Running and go leave it all behind
But I'm a survivor,
Do or die, I have to fight for my life

You said it's my life to choose
Who cares about people's and currencies
Who cares?
Well, I do

And I have people I love too,
Even if all I inherit is just bruise
And I'm sorry I didn't choose you...
I love you, it's true
It's still true

If I couldn't walk
would you be my cane?
If I couldn't think
would you be my brain?

If I couldn't talk
would you be my tongue?
If I couldn't breathe
would you be my lung?

If I couldn't see
would you be my eyes?
If I fall down
would you help me rise?

If I get lonely
would you be by my side?
If I lose my way
would you be my guide?

If I get sick
would you comfort me?
If I'm locked up
would you be my key?

If I lose someone
would you help me grieve?
If I lost hope
would you help me believe?

If I get riled
would you calm me down?
If I get sad
would you be my clown?

I need you more
than I’d dare say.
If I asked you
would you promise to stay?