I scream,
Wishing you would scream back.
I talk,
Wishing you would talk back.
I hear my phone ring,
Wishing you were the person calling.
I answer my door,
Wishing you were the person who appears.
I eat,
Wishing you were eating with me.
I drink,
Wishing you were drinking with me.
I dance,
Wishing you were dancing with me.
I breathe,
Wishing you were breathing with me.
I listen,
Wishing I could hear your voice.
I walk,
Wishing you were walking behind me.
I laugh,
Wishing you were laughing with me.
I cry,
Wishing you would dry my tears.
I hyperventilate,
Wishing you would calm me down.
I bleed,
Wishing you would save me from myself.
I sleep;
& I know your here.
I dont ever want to open my eyes;
Because the only way I'll see you,
Is in my dreams.

When you've walked the ground you do not know
When you've sewn the seeds you saw fit to sow
When you've run so fast you must go slow
When you've had many highs and just as many lows

I'll be wishing you home cross the land and sea
I'll be wishing you back to where you first left me
I'll be wishing you home to where we'll both be happy
I'll be wishing you home to me

When you've see all those people you dreamed to meet
When you've made all the money to live a life sweet
When you've cried all the tears and soaked the bed sheets
When you're to sad to cry and too tired to sleep

I'll be wishing you home, calling you loud and clear
I'll be wishing you back to my love and cheer
I'll be sending my love to bring you back here
I'll be wishing you home, my dear

When you've smiled all the smiles that will ever grace your face
When you've lived all the lives  that were given the human race
When you've grown sick of genuine and even sicker of fake
When you given all you can give and taken all you can take

I'll be wishing you back here, wishing you home
I'll be wishing to see how much you've grown
I'll be wishing to hear of the places you roamed
I'll be wishing you, wishing you home.

11:11
Praying you’re okay
Wishing I was there next to you
Wishing I could tuck u in bed and tell you everything is alright
Wishing I could kiss you
Wishing I could see ur beautiful smiles come to live
Wishing u all the happiness in life
Wishing you would stay with me forever
Wishing to see ur beautiful face
Wishing to taste ur smile
And state into ur eyes
Wishing I could wipe ur tears
When u don’t feel alright
Wishing my days
Where with u
And the nights
Wishing us a tomorrow
Filled with lights
Wishing all the tears away all the time
Wishing us a house
With both of us inside
Me hugging u tight
And us watching the sun at twighlight

they write about her im the toilets.
they call her a ****.
they mock her.
they make her hate herself.
everything she is, everthing shes become.
its their fault.

she crys herself to sleep at night.
wishing she could change.
wishing the scars would fade.

wishing she could fade.
wishing she hadnt done the things she things she had.

wishing.
wishing.
wishing.

just wishing she would die.

Supposedly making wishes on a shooting star are supposed to work.
I've never believed in that kind of stuff but right now I'll try anything.
Wishing someone would understand.
Wishing I wasn't so alone.
Wishing someone would consider my feelings.
Wishing someone would take my side.
Wishing my brother wasn't dead.
Wishing I could numb my emotions.
Wishing I was alone.
Wishing I wasn't.
Wishing for November 16, 2014 to stop existing.
Wishing for sanity.
Wishing I didn't have this particular life.
Wishing this shooting star would work.
But sadly the only person that considered mine and my sisters feelings was a man we've only met once.

I find my self uncontrollable again
I cannot stop this breathing
I cannot stop these tears
Until it all goes black
And I'm gone
Out of this body
Watching myself
As I fall apart
Wishing I had a friend
Wishing I could ask for help
Wishing I would let them see how bad I really get
Wishing I could go to my mother and just cry
Wishing I had someone
Because that's what I wanted
I wanted a friend.
A real friend.
Because this thing inside my head is not my friend
It has started to scare me
It is getting out of control
And it's bad again
It's here
It never left but it's been getting worse
And here I lay in bed 2 in the morning crying
Fuseing with my desires
A friend
A mother whom I didn't need to lie to
A dad whom i wished wasn't a *** head
Whom I wished wasn't a complete ******* idiot high school drop out
Whom I wished wasn't an *******
Whom I wish wasn't suicidal
Whom I wished I could accept for what he was and is a high school drop out trying his best
Because I am exactly like him.
Except Im in school with of course that honor role
Wishing I had never cut
Wishing I had never taken those pills
Wishing I didn't wish this **** because I learned from it all
But ****
Wishing i didn't hurt this much
Wishing I had a friend
Wishing I was good enough for myself
For the loves
For my father
For my dad
For my family
Because how could I love myself when my father never did?
How could I be enough when the failures cloud my all?
How could I have a friend when they don't even know me?
And it's here again its insisting
The realization keeps banging me
I don't want to be here
Go away
Hide
It's okay
Go away
I don't want to be here
This place isn't meant for me
Just slice once more vertical there you go
One more pill that's it
Now you can leave
And it hits again and again
That I'm so **** tired of fighting this
fly away
Go away

I look around and see the smiles and laughter of others,
Wishing I could have what they have.

I see couple kissing and holding hands with such love,
Wishing I could have what they have.

I see the world and the people it has with there fame,
Wishing I could have what they have.

I see people live there life to the fullest with no regrets,
Wishing I could have what they have.

I hear about the accomplishments of extraordinary people,
Wishing I could have what they have.

Most of all, I feel the happiness around me spreading like wild fire,
Wishing just wishing, I could feel it for a moment to.

I wish I wasn't wishing for you to be mine but for you to come over.

I wish I wasn't wishing for you to finally say you are ready but for you to say you love me.

I wish I wasn't wishing to run into you somewhere because i miss you but running into your arms for a long hug.

I wish I wasn't wishing for you to open your eyes to see me but waiting for you to wake up after a nap together.

I wish I wasn't wishing for you but you wishing for me.

I wish I wasn't wishing for it to start,
But instead wishing it would never end.

Just...Stop

Stop wishing away the lines on your face.
Every line means you smiled!
Stop wishing away your stretch marks.
For every one of them there is a grateful child.
Stop wishing away those extra pounds.
It means you have food to eat.
Stop wishing away your corns and bunions.
It means you have shoes to put upon your feet.
Stop wishing away your grey hair!
It means you've had many years to enjoy life.
Stop wishing away imperfections,
perceived by others lies.
There is someone out there
who sees you
as perfect in their eyes!
Badges of Courage!
Not shame.
Please...
Stop wishing them away.