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zdrowie, na budowie (health, on a construction site, a modern polish proverb) - because? well the army allows it, any woman can be bossy in the army... but on a construction? perhaps the very rare example of a woman working side by side with bricklayers (and that does happen), but construction work is immune to all ideology focusing on the pop. narratives of feminism... women will not infiltrate the construction industry, they can infiltrate the army, but not the construction industry, unless of course, they're dinner ladies, or secretaries, but even then, the construction site canteen is dying, reduced to a kettle and a microwave... all i'm seeing, when my father goes to work is an army... or as the joke goes about the managerial staff, with tight jeans and pink car rims? well... you can take a boy out of essex, but you can't take essex out of a boy.
i can only assume that writing is spawned
from a weakening of a
cognitive narrative -
foremostly i have to "apologise"
for making such a compound term,
but i remember an echo of what once was,
a firm grasp of narration,
in thinking terms,
as such, thought per se, used to be a leisure,
or rather: a pleasure,
but since then... scrabble...
static dissonance...
a poignant blur: a bit like the impressionist
movement... hardly the fizzy water...
naturally from impressionism,
to expressionism, and then: a smack into
dada and subsequently a return to geometry
via cubism...
but there really is a correlation
between writing, and a weakening of
a cognitive narrative -
i know: -ive -ive
but one's categorised
as an adjective, the other is a noun -
even though they share the same
form of a suffix...
yes, i know this is merely
"poetry",
there is no sludge of fictive
architecture that might encompass a narrator,
props and character studies,
no embodiment of cohesion that
makes it to the bestseller's list of:
same ****, different cover...
yes, it's scattered, yes it's primitive in
composition, but what it isn't, is
akin to the protagonist of the film
nothing's funny, or freak's day
(nic śmiesznego) (dzień świra),
i.e.: hard to put a thought to paper...
the escape artist of this conundrum
comes out either: a happy manual labourer
content with rest at the end of his chores...
of a sir-mouth-a-lot, talking, talking, talking,
much like any other example required
to show a: ditto-head;
see, my grandmother doesn't like poetry,
so i gave her a book my zbigniew herbert
(the whole mr. cogito sequence of poems
and all) and all i said was:
doesn't poetry feel, breezy? airy?
on what occassion has a poet constrained
himself to the zoology of a paragraph?
airy, isn't it, doesn't strain the eyes
so much...
well... if i didn't have the ****** luxury
of pixel paper, i too would be offended by
this waste of paper, but since this isn't paper...
a baboon just escaped its confinement and
it rummaging in the zoo's cafe, looking for
a caffeine fix; later he'll be found
in the pharmacy, looking for some
cream to ease the bulging hemorrhoids
(nice fact: algorithms are...
apart from search engines...
spell... chequers...
tongue says one thing, eyes see another).
no, if i wanted cohesion, i'd have invented glue,
huh? ah... adhesive... but there really isn't
a worthwhile mention of adhesion,
unless of course:
you put a bumper sticker on
your tongue and say: speaking english is
the only form of patriotism i know:
allegiance to the tongue, but not the crown;
why? i have my crown on a ten pound
note... but it's not that i want
her dead, it would grand to see this english
monetary overhaul, seeing ol' charlie on
the notes...
you know, fun.
yet i do remember times when i could grasp
a strong cognitive narrative,
and there was no point in writing,
anything...
esp. not something like this,
jeez...
now, in painting a mess can be excused,
or rather: conceptualized, but in writing?
ooh... caesar salad...
you can't even conceptualize a reader's
short-attention span, or at least:
how long does this straight line go?
no darting eyes?
where?
here!
for all the mumbo-jumbo of heidegger's
strict writing, he at least taught me spatial coordination.
as well as how nerves shatter, and then mend.
yes, there is no narrative cage,
yes there is no caged animal,
instead of a:
--
| | there's an: \ /
-- / \
an opening.
i can understand critique, but only if the critique
allows dialectics,
Kant imploded on this
realisation when he dedicated a section
of his work to a thesis and an antithesis...
why? because he doubted the already
embarked on synthesis...
every manner of critique is welcome,
as long as the critique can entertain
a dialectical safety
mechanism... overwise: sure, be on your way.
of course it's going to be messy,
why can painter get away with mess,
while writing has to be adhesive in nature,
spare me the concentration that later involves
taking a book to bed, and falling asleep with it;
as i admire those people who fall asleep
easily during transit (bus, plane, train, whatever),
i have the same admiration for people
who fall asleep reading a book...
and because of william burroughs...
far from taking hallucinogenics,
there's the sour bourbon (just some lemon juice
added) and there's the: ******* blank page
staring me in the face -
or in gujarat english:
s'te'rrrrr'ing (gotta trill that R
like a rattle snake):
alternatively eton english:
starring bogus the penguin;
hit cue: as with the old movies -
came the credits first,
now? just ask for a supermarket
cashier to read you the list...
as if no one these days is bound to be
forgotten.
to stare, or to be cast: that is not a question;
whoopsee.
the subtle "orthography" in english -
and **** me what a custard worth spaghetti
that it does to the memory bank:
i see we sailed the sea.
now, if that doesn't erode your memory,
notably when you take to writing
away from speaking and a manual job?
i don't know, what will.
of man and the universe:
like a cat endowed (armed) with only
a meow, exploring human speech,
varying it by many degrees,
with grunts and purrs of labour,
while sometimes shrieking noises
or, crafting a mimic of a hunchback
upright, ready to express grievances.
bore: the domino effect of narration,
or rather: when the art of narration becomes
predictable,
whoever strikes at a guess,
because the narrative is lost to the fact that
cinema exhausted it,
in that modern narration is almost
always predictable;
whoever thought that gambling on
a story was not unheard of, can hear this.
- when motherhood, or parenting in general
is equated with a "profession",
or rather the hyper-industrialisation,
reaching into the bowels (*****, borrows,
bowls?) - of a family unit...
two things are happening:
on one side the shrapnel argument,
on the other side: the hyper-industrialisation
of the family unit:
there really isn't much to
navigate with, no compass, no map,
merely chance, luck, happenstance...
because when did motherhood become
a job?
parenting became a job?
2nd. phase iconoclasm.
(in a mock impression):
oh gee, when did barnie become barney,
he he (as in a mock of laughter):
joe'bb, joe'b... job, yob,
lobby, jolly, jobe...
****, paraglider, spike...
you can tell i'm **** as crosswords;
i hear too much,
and my oyster is rummaging in
number puzzles, that translate into
a strict rubric of adhering to spellin;
you can pacify the rest on me,
but this corner of interest has to stay:
firm.
- i could have respected darwinism,
if only it remained in its, original biology
nieche,
but since then, darwinism has become
a quasi-marxism,
not that i'm slowing you down or anything,
but darwinism translated into
a historical narrative is like a brick wall...
a cul de sac of any future events,
****... back to petting a monkey...
if there is such a thing as common
sense...
how did darwinism escape
the zoo and enter into a study of history?
and as such: become the testing ground
for all things to come?
believe me when i say:
darwin only matters in the anglophone
sphere of talk, think, do...
darwin is crass in terms of
currency of affairs designated to the times
of occupying a shell of limbs...
not to mention that communism was first
tested on Mongolia...
yep, Mongolia was the host
of communism...
they tested it there for, i guess,
the same arguments that post-colonial
children who have inherited a past
might be deemed easy target...
or rather: because from Mongolia came
a certain khan...
(surd H)
as is the case with several familial ties
in pakitan, sharing that surname...
kan (otherwise crackle
and trying to await audience with phlegm
to spit with).
if it were not a Latin man answering for
the Greek for the short-hand version of
the old testament,
it wouldn't be a study of the tetragrammaton,
first H is for laughter (vowel magnet),
the second H is for the allowance of surds
(e.g. khan):
the greek tetragrammaton
consists of the following letters,
based on an a "god", or rather the hidden
iota:
ΨΘΞΦ
well... if we're all going to be literate monkeys...
might as well complicate things further,
based on the meritocracy of:
you do your ****, i do mine,
i don't dig up your grave,
you don't dig up mine...
we meet in the middle,
and stalk a fascination with 3 dimensional
space, akin to it being compressed
into a: jesus mary and joseph,
or a trímūrtí the hindus believe in).
- yet this constant reiteration,
this constant banging against the wall...
in the anglophone world a seemingly
dead end, fudge-packaging of events,
mingling with a journalistic insomnia...
journalism is in a state of
insomnia...
i can actually go through
the day not even bothering to remember
what day of the week it is,
but i can tell you what day of
the week it is, watching the volume of
traffic...
like some idaho monk smoking
a spliff...
it's not that it's wrong,
but akin to marx, darwin's ideology has
infiltrated areas that should have been left
to their own demands...
for all i know, anglophone "orthography"
is so subtle, that all it takes is a spelling
mistake to reveal it...
which is why i don't
bother with metaphysics;
and what a grace bestowed upon me
by england, to be born a monster of
these lands, based simply, on minor clues
of usage.