So sensitive we are
Deeply sunk in our love
With it we keep each other afloat
Through this toxic river of life
Even though we both love another
And recognize the depth of our feelings together
We still experience tremoring fear
In the face of the other's other

I know we don't talk now
And I understand why you hate me
I wish I could explain myself
And that you could have forgave me.
I know I was a terrible friend to you
Not there when you needed me most
What you didn't know made it seem
Like I just wanted you to go.
I know I agreed you should leave
That I didn't try harder to fix things
I wish I knew better back then
To stop the problems from happening.
We were close once before
And it was also really complicated
Metamores to best friends
Our past never too far away.
I wish we could laugh together
And share our stories of growth
I hope you're doing better now
And I wish I could know.
I should've apologized right away
When I texted you those years ago
I planned to if you talked to me
But I should've let you know.
I'm sorry for how I treated you
It was never about our friendship
Maybe one day I'll get to explain
The effects of my toxic partnership.