Drove through snowstorms over icy roads
Warmed by the fire of my love for you
Following a lifeline of energy
Thought it led to your heart, warm and true
But there was only burning pain as you pushed me back
Erasing all the joy I ever knew
Signs were there that it was a trap
But the mine exploding in my face was my first clue
Open hearts are always more vulnerable..... But to truly love, and receive love, we must be vulnerable
I watched as my heart was wrenched out of my body.
I watched as the blade twisted into my chest,
And punctured my lungs so I couldn’t breathe.
As the sword withdrew,
My heart spilled out and lay beating on the floor,
And she didn’t even carry a look that indicated the words:
An account of what happened when my friend ruined my high school life and told everyone my deepest insecurities, secrets, and weaknesses.
How can you contain a storm
Because I've tried all these years
I've deprived myself of all things
Just to keep my mind clear
It seems like it's getting worse
I can't help but be frozen with fear
I just wanted to build a snowman
But I have to miss it every year
For once I want to let go
Of these gloves, my mental chains
If I suppress it, it only grows
I don't want to hurt her again
I'm afraid of keeping this coldness inside
That it will stay and freeze my heart too
Alone and afraid, trying to maintain this lie
When was the last time I said anything true?
I'm afraid of myself most of all
How can I fit in this society?
When I cannot be who I am
Without remorse, rejection and anxiety
I'm afraid the longer I'm away from her
I'll lose my last bit of warmth
That I will soon be cold-hearted
Then I will never stop the storm
I seem to prefer the cold
As if to sooth my bruised heart
So it freezes and no longer bleeds
Frozen around and between the parts
Because a cold heart is still whole
Even if it can no longer feel
When the warmth has been lost
Losing its attraction to appeal
Only a fool would fall in love
Having the intention to steal
This fool's gold of a heart away
One that has been shut and sealed
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
that saves a wretch like me
one so undeserving of the love
that is brought upon me.
I once was lost
in a coldhearted rage
for the world around me
appeared to be so against me.
But now I'm found
I am in love with life
because You showed me
that all is possible.
I was blind but now I see
I see the glory in all that life is,
all of it's ups and downs
and I see I will always be promised eternal days.
In the beginning,
A slight flame,
There is no cold,
Just a lack of heat.
You still were the warmest place they knew;
To even force a fire out of you.
To burn you down to ashes,
Left with not even a spark,
There still is no warmer place than you.
Even when it's left with no fire,
Not even warmth,
i gave you my heart
you took it with you
when you left
my favorite sweatshirt
i don't mind
as long as they both keep you warm
you need it more than me
because you're as coldhearted as it gets
— The End —