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Moon Wright  Feb 2018
Philophobic
Moon Wright Feb 2018
Love
Such a human emotion
Something all humans carve to have
Something all humans can't resist

But

There are some
Like me
Who can't stand the thought
Of love
It terrifies us
To our very core

Love

Such a repulsive word
We don't crave it
We resist it the best we can

But

The human need for love
The human craving for love
The human wanting of love
Fights with this fear
And every day they clash
Together in a fight over control
Neither side is willing to back down

Love

Such a terrible, scary word
Such a deep, uninviting word
Such a tear-working word

I can't have it
It needs to stay away
I don't need it
It scares me anyway

Love

Such a terrifying word
Philophobia is real; it lives in me
Hanny Geraldine Jul 2015
I used to be a philophobic
Then I met you
Azrapse Jan 2018
Her lips tasted like candy
She was a ray of the sun
That shined so very brightly
I wish I could have held her forever
When she walked away it saddened me
I went in a craze
I don’t think I can live without my baby
I just want to be there for forever
Watching her closely
Gently caressing her soul
I wish I could be the one
Though I know she deserves better
don’t know what is wrong with me
broke her little heart
I should have pushed her away
From the start
Before she fell for me
But I let her in
Then I kicked her out
That became routine
Over and over and over again
Till she finally walked away
I guess I’m glad
I truly wish
she could find someone better
Alone I lay weeping in the shadows
Thinking of how different things could be
But of all the things I’ve loved and lost
It’s been etched into my soul
Love comes and goes
And it hurts so much when it goes
So don’t fall in love my friends
It will save you some heartache
Cause everything eventually goes
From her life I will fade away
But my heart won’t seize to ache
I miss the days euphoric
The wonderful tunes of music that made me frolic
The times when love was a tonic drink that made me a stoic alcoholic.

But life is tragic enough to render anyone a philophobic;
making them manically depressive,
making humor esoteric,
making them despise anyone
whom to love

was ecstatic.
This was written October 26, 2014.

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Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2018
Pretending
  Hiding
     Insecurities
        Learned
           Over
              Previous
                 Heartbreak
                    Only
                      Baring
                        Is
                          Caution
izzn  Apr 1
philophobic
izzn Apr 1
im afraid the best i could be is a lover

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