I swear I saw tears
form behind your eyes
The pain I feel too
and understand that you deny
I want to tell you
you can trust and rely
on me for support
but to you I can't lie

Words I can't speak
for you make me feel
I had forgotten how
and you accidentally steal
my masks and walls
and vulnerable I kneel
Neither of us can deny
that this pain is real

To claw and grasp at the nearest death
Am I so wrong to cling to my last breath
I've shed this skin a million times before
Soured by the repetition
Of skinning myself to fit in

Two hands joining
The others holding back

To swim in your ocean
Lost in the sea I'll thank you as waves
Take me under, crash over me
And I'll drown the sincerest goodbye
With an abysmal lullaby

For a chance you've said I'd be missed
I'll repeat the scars I've branded with honor
But wear them with diluted meanings
My intentions once seemed pure
Now they're promises I can't endure

Two hands joining
The others holding back

To swim in your ocean
Lost in the sea I'll thank you as waves
Take me under, crash over me
And I'll drown the sincerest goodbye
With an abysmal lullaby

How long the road has waited
To crumble beneath my feet
Wandering to the edge
For a last look at the sun setting
And then I felt the path give way

Two hands joining
The others holding back

To swim in your ocean
Lost in the sea I'll thank you as waves
Take me under, crash over me
And I'll drown the sincerest goodbye
With an abysmal lullaby

Two hands joined
The others held back

Words that I dared not speak
that killed me from inside
For to let them out would hurt you
but I contain and let them die

The crushing weight of feelings
that I could not bear to voice
I just let them rot inside my heart
it was my only choice.

I am never satisfied
for I am never enough.

She told me I could do better.
I could, and now I can.
Perfection is a few steps away
from a few steps away.

I think of you and my eyes burn
but I only cry in my dreams

Dying to be sane,
but strapped to the table
so sick of being called crazy

Hospitalized eternally
may heaven be my medicine
to prove I was a failure from the start

I die
to cry
But you
cannot cry
once dead

I feel like I shouldn't have to choose
between nightmares and insomnia

You're too pretty to cry
You're too young to die