I die each night
to close my eyes
I feel you breathing
by my side
Curled up inside
My grip and pride
to feel the demons
that I cried

Below my fist
a brokenness
that longs for burdens
other than this
I breathe my wish
upon your lips
and wander slowly
down your hips

You take my hands
unknown my plan
for you are only
one young man.
I trip to brand
and above you stand
and dominate your
shattered land

My heavy heart
won't let you in
I fight for you
but let you win
The feelings that
I will give in
to pain and dark
eternal sin

I hear you still
though you don't know
you think I moved on
so long ago

But softly rings
your voice in me,
inside where none
can hear or see

the thoughts I hid,
buried not well.
The secrets to you
I didn't need to tell.

So sing for me,
I know you will,
and when I drift away
I'll hear you still.

Be the blood of my lips
sinful red
pinched between my own teeth
in your stead.
The chill of my sheets
yet unknown
Reminded of how it feels
sleeping alone.
Though my fiery skin yearns and
misses you
My bed was to small
for two

Mortar crust upon my skin
from building walls too thin

to provide myself a sanctuary
where I can deny those who care for me.

I cannot resist my need to hide
So I lurk and recoil inside;

I clumsily regress into a crawl
as my tears remember how to fall.