I can’t believe it
I almost couldn’t finish
Because you... you were in my head
I nearly cried!
Flooded with dopamine
And you made me cry
I still miss you, **** it!
Your absence has left my heart torn
YOU LEFT ME ALONE

You’re no good for me
I’ll only hurt you
But my stupid little heart
It got attached
It desperately wants you close

I miss you
I love you
And I’m so... I’m so sorry...

Medicine there's none
for the curing
you are your own physician
you do the prescribing-

all that's outside
is but the peeling
it touches not your core
nor a whit of your feeling--

harken to the voice within
its gentle whispering
amidst all the world's mad striving
let your life be the praying-

with your mind and heart
set in humble accepting
every storm shall subside
then descends the true peace and blessing.

Is like bread,
Staple diet in your life
Made and remade new all the time.
12/2/2020

3 years ago
i cried on a bathroom floor

(that was the first time i cheated on you)

my freedom
scared me
but

now
it sustains me

still want you
still waiting

maybe i should have
left you
alone

I never knew the lyrics of my life,
You completed the song,
Our love made it musical
11/2/2020

hated him the most,
slowly I grew to love him
I worship him now.
11/2/2020