Under these stars
That dance in your eyes
Under the full moon
While it whispers a sensual lullaby
Let's make love

Not caring if the owls
Wish to spread the word
Or if the wolves howl
Echoes from the mountains
Let's make love

Express out eternal emotions
Let the adrenaline
And the closeness
Bring forward a torrent of passion
Let's make love

I couldnt say I believe in you
I couldnt say i walk in your name
But every breath I seem to take
Your the one thing getting shoved
Down my trachea
Biting down on silver bullets
Watching your disciples crucify me
Torturing me with senseless mumbo jumbo
About how Im going to hell when I die
Yet they cant see in it my eyes
They're too blinded by hopes of eternal life
Walking down the golden streets of heaven
If angels and demons existed
What the **** would it make me
Im inhuman compared to these vile creatures
If you made them in the image of you
Then now I see the real devil
Your name itself holds no value
At least the devil has a face to the name
You, just your son
You sentenced to die
You did nothing
Let it all happen
Youre the ruthless aggression
All cower before
I'm just the guy waiting to die
I dont care what awaits me
I just wish you knew
I dont give a **** about religions
I'm a mortal god
Judger of my own sins
Crimes I only commit against me
Sentencer to my own punishment
You let books and false prophets
Predict a future no one knows
Maybe we should all just die
Tell me if you find heaven or hell then
But when you wake up and see me over you
Laughing at how irrelevant your beliefs
Have come to be
Dont say a word
I want to watch as you cry
Because I know the only thing waiting for me in death
Is a darkness death itself is afraid of

what are lies
do they hold the truth somewhere
do they hide the truth
are they the key to saving a mans sanity

dont lie to me
dont lie to the eastern winds
dont lie to the face in the mirror
you cant hide the truth forever

why do we tell lies
do we hate each other that much
are we common enemies
what the hell is wrong with us

lies bring devastation
they bring exctinction
our death written in the sands
unwritten by the truth

we tell lies as we walk the earth
no man is honest
he walks with a mask on
he tells false stories

he captivates
then erradicates
making you wish you never existed
lies bringing on the shadows

earth is the prise
inherited by demons
hells wrath known to mankind
nothing to save us but the truth

tell more lies
let the truth in this world be unknon
savage and ruthless beings
your blood on thier hands

makes you sick dont it
knowing you got no time
to tell the truth
thats what lies are
realization that your dead either way!

Their unexpected errors
Their beautiful sights
But for one split second
Their your biography

Lifes final moments
Wait for no one
And when their done
So are you

Their epic dreams
Their riveting sounds
But for one split second
Their what sets you apart

Lifes final moments
Come in all fatal times
In a dying persons eyes
And the truth to their lies

I took every punch
I got ***** with my head buried
I took it laying down
Like a *****
Curled up in the fettle position
Getting curb stomped
And ran over
Like a *****
But I guess it's time
I whip my **** out
Let my nuts drop
Start giving *** whooping's
Time to start *******
Instead of getting ******
She's out of my life
These emotions made me a *****
No longer a problem
So **** it
She didn't care all that much
No worries I have another woman
Ten times better than anyone
You can find in a mirror

I'm counting the text and calls
Hearing voicemails while I'm at work
Checking facebook and instagram
Photos of the good days
When worry was a sack of ****
And a bottle of *****
Easily taking care of me
Video games for hours
Time just passing you by
Forgetting what day it was
Or if you missed another year
But I didn't care to hear it from them
I was waiting for you to text me
For you to call
Maybe hearing your voice would make today
Less of another day
And one worth living
20 years old as of today
And valentines day is around the corner
Maybe forgetting me now
Is a better way of saying
I'll be even more lonely four days from now

It's kind of funny
How i want to forget her
To let her go
And disappear into ancient shadows

I told her so many times
That I wouldn't do that
But she didn't realize
That I have a limit

I hate this lingering love
Dissolving my insides like acid
Twisting my mind like a pretzel
And I just want the pain to end

I knew that when I took
That one leap of faith
I would regret it all
Now I want to forget it all

This lingering love
Is filled with more pain
Than when I wanted to hold her
And be there when I knew I couldn't

Ever growing agony
Twist and turns
Intestines sow themselves into
Weaving cobwebs in my stomach
Wrenching in despair
Knowing life is fleeting
The moments I was happiest
Torn paper documents
Shredded by lies
Little by little
I can feel death growing closer
Icy fingertips inching
Should I reach
Or pray my funeral doesn't see sunlight

Smiles cross your face
Easy as dew drops on morning glories
Worries don't beckon you
In late night hours
Innocence radiates through you
Like sunrise in frosted trees
Little one with the biggest heart
Never grow old
Into a remnant of what I am now
Your path opens up
As my hands bleed
From carving your beginning
Keeping your feet warm
As you'll walk this journey
With wisdom I wasn't given

I've wished upon you countless times
Knowing my wish
May never reach your light
Perhaps you've been burned out
Granting too many other wishes
Selfish in their desires
But I pray for your well being
Knowing before your obituary is published
You'll have watched me live and die
More times than you'll have been wished upon

Loneliness
The key to my survival
The one thing I try to stay in
But people are attracted to me
Confusing and sending my mind reeling

Questions I hope to answer
Answers I pray never to find
But I'm in a lonely world
Dark and mystical

Leaving me breathless
Waiting for my true love to give back
My stolen heartbeat
Paralyzed in a world full of killers

Yet the one I fear is the killer
The monster, the demon within
I hope and pray my world to turn to rubble
Sending me to a dark corner

Watch as your nightmares
And my sweet evil dreams
Become the reality you came to find in me
The apocalypse is the bomb inside me
That is the reason I prefer to be alone

225 719 9187
Call today and save my soul
No money neccesary
Just a ******* and have a blessed day
Preach to me the teachings of god
Tell me how I'll go to hell for my sins
Where loving once pays in dying twice
Enlighten me on what I did so wrong
Curse my name
Spit in the ground I walk
Bury me under my own misery
What else can I say
We all knew I was a **** up
Sanity not a birthright
Hell if you wanted perfect you should have never came to me
I've slept with more women than I could count
Chased emotions away with broomsticks
But like any rabid beast
Give it attention
It knows where home could be
So call today and maybe your words
Could take this lonely soul
And free it into the place it was meant to be born into
But you wont do it
You're scared
You fear me
Not knowing what kind of man I am
Second guessing the reason you chose
To dial my number in the first place
Maybe you should forget it
I'm sure I'll find my own will
To do the devils work for him
He's not to blame
God should be ashamed
I am he
He is you
You are me
Me is dead
So I guess we all are
When we were born in his image
I'm done talking I'm taking action
Feel free to cleanse your own soul
By trying to cleanse mine
PLEASE SIR
PLEASE MA'AM
TELL ME HOW YOUR GOD CAN SAVE ME NOW
WHEN THE ONLY THINGS THAT NEED TO BE SAVED
IS THE THINGS I'LL ABUSE TO DESTROY MYSELF

Dear Grandma,
Dear Mom,
Dear Pops,
Dear Bruce,
Dear Travis,
Dear David,
Dear Vanessa,
Dear Tifani,
Dear All My Trusty Friends
DEAR WORLD,
I never understood the point of saying goodbye
Half the time it was never good when we parted
Onto other roads we'll travel
Cardinal directions never crossing our paths
Our own mazes we walked
Labyrinths we struggled to get through
I have a long list of goodbyes to get through
Dear Tabitha,
Guess I should mention you
At least at some point in my final work
After all it was you who opened me up
An untrained surgeon
Performing open heart surgery
Nothing was left to suppress
All my anger silenced
Before your silence awoken it
All the pain kept at bay
Food to this hibernating monster
Teddy bears have feelings too
Only the darkest resides
In the cave within my mountain chest
This long list of goodbyes ends
With a kiss and hopeful wishes
You find the notes I left you all
Goodbye was never a word I liked to use
It was always later
Well I know I'll never see you all ever again
Ill be a cold breeze in your head
As your hearts skip a beat
A signal of my passing
Some secrets are taken to the grave
But I know some of you will chase
The answers to why I left this earth
In such a timely fashion
I never sought empathy or pity
Sympathy was never a thought
I was blessed with
I gave my all at this life
Now its my turn to be silent
As I lay my head down for the last time
Knowing you all know I had you in my thoughts

It's obvious isn't it
I'm laying on a stretcher
Clinging to life
My heart gave out
With a simple glance at your beauty
Looks can ****
I learned that the best way
By falling in love with you

I carved your initials into my chest
I cut my wrist in the shape of a heart
I loved you so much
And all you did was leave
What did I do to deserve that
Lo siento
If I said I love you too many times
Lo siento
That I said I love you in the first place

We lost ourselves
Somewhere in the sands of time
We lost sight
Forgot where we were
Who was there and why
I waited on every reply
Every word you wrote
Crack addict wishing for another dose
Withdrawals 10 times over
You were my best friend
All I wanted
All I could need
Therapist to self inflicted scars
Motivator of my soul
Yet you stripped it from me
When you said goodbye
We lost each other
And neither one bled more
Then the emotions that blossomed
Still in bloom
On sunny days
When I read your words again

Searched high and low
No footsteps or trace of her
She ventured of into the unknown
I lost her without realizing
She let go
My hand so far outstretched
I blindly grabbed into the crowds
Caught only dust
And the scent of her perfume
A lovely goodbye
I dreaded for so long
I held her from birth
In my very own infant hands
Watched her grow
Ran around the yard so many times
We left a pathway so pops didnt have to mow
Swimming together at Papa's
Too many memories
And I'll curse the heavens of every religion
For taking her away
For not letting me be strong enough for her
Why did she leave
Why did she let go
What purpose do I have without her
I should have been the one to go
I have nothing
I'll always be this broken man
Longing for another chance
To fight a war I'll never win
But if it means saving her this time
I'll wage war with titans and gods alike
I lost her
Never found myself
I know oneday I'll find her
In that old sandbox we played together in
Or swinging on that old swing set
We had our first kiss on
I know she's waiting
So maybe I should let go
Fall into her arms
Let her hold me like she lost me
While I love her
Till she finds me in the darkness
I created when she left

It's the silent thumps
Things going bump in the night
Yet it's only my heart
Ceasing to give a **** anymore
I'm lost in this nothingness
Labeled loneliness by my own fears
Left alone in this prison darkness
Reminiscing about the conversations
The I love you's with countless meanings
Yet you just let me slip through
Not bothering to try and juggle me
I'd rather be up in the air
Than plummeting face first
Into my own grave dug by my heart
I'm lost in this nothingness
And you subsequently forgot me
Loneliness an almost peaceful hell
Yet my thoughts ravish this opportunity
Vultures to a herd of rotted elephants
I'm useless in your eyes
Your own feelings evading you
So what's to stop them from evading me
What's to say try we're never for me
But for the thoughts of somebody loving you
I can't mistake this
I don't love you
I'm ******* madly in love with you
Crying tsunami tears
Sinking battleships surviving hurricanes
Yet you don't stop to think
I'm lost in this nothingness
All because I couldn't keep my mouth shut
Keep my own stupid feelings to myself
I just had to tell you I love you
I just had to keep falling in
Maybe when rock bottom comes
I'll already be too broken and numb
But I can't blame you
It's not like you ever text back
Not like you're interested in saying hi
To the guy willing to give it all up for you
The one fighting fate just to be with you
What idiot stays to fight
When the reinforcements are surrendering
Who stands alone when the world
Holds machine guns to your head
Still says ******* and expects to live
I'm lost in this nothingness
Because you gave up
Thinking I would
Well it's a ******* option
It takes two to tango
Yet you're listening to the waltz
And I'm left to myself
Like a suicidal maniac with a gun
**** this **** I'm done
Good thing it's loaded
Maybe now you'll see
This nothingness is the reason for my loneliness
And hopefully the brain splatter
With draw it out for you
Wish I could tell you I love you now
But I don't think you'd even listen

I forgot what you smelled like
The way your perfume
Followed like a shadow
Engulfing rooms
Fields of random flowers
Blossoming in my nose

I forgot what you looked like
Long hair covering sparkling eyes
Trying to hide the beauty
That keeps breaking your heart
Only finding comfort in buttered hands

I forgot what you taste like
Gentle lips dressed with cherry lip balm
Slipping away
Every time I immerse myself in memory
I wonder what you taste like now
A million miles away

I forgot how you felt
Soft skin of silken desire
Gentle not to hold you too tight
Fragile frame I towered over
You were a perfect sculpture
I couldn’t hold on to forever

I forgot what you sound like
A recipe of lullaby’s and similes
Sass, humor, life flowing in harmony
Your giggle precious as angel choirs
Voice of piercing softness
Silencing demons for only the hours we talked

I forgot what it was like
To remember everything about you
And now my memory fades to black
A silhouette remains
Maybe I’ll see you again
In this life or the next
To refresh my lost senses

There's no beauty in it
It's just a false emotion
Filled with pain, misery, and ugliness
Wrapped neatly in a bow
Just to fool you
It's the Christmas gift you prayed not to get
It's the dry *** turkey on thanksgiving
It's the fire blazing in your living room
From faulty fireworks on New Years
Love is a lie
Never was it as beautiful as death
Only as ugly as life

I love you
Yet I hate it
The butterflies when you smile
In my direction
The sensation of puking
When it's meant for someone else
I'm in love with a friend
Yet I want to **** it so badly
If this heart skips one more time
I'll use tannerite to replace it
You looked away when I needed you
Solid as roman architecture
I stood, for you to lean upon
Embraced you as tears fell
Faster than your heart
As he pushed you away
We've had our ups and downs
Ignoring each other
Hoping for feelings to decay
Yours I believe rotted
While mine refuse to die
Still you turn to me
For I'm always there
Waiting for you to slip
Only to cushion the fall
I love how I hate my mind
As it wanders back to you
And every smile I despise
When your name touches my lips
I hate how I love you
I love how I hate my feelings
One has to go
Before my mind I force to blow
It's killing me
Knowing right now
You neither need me or want me
Probably because I'll only cloud
An already foggy mind
I've confessed so many ways
None you'll hear about
You don't know how deep this goes
This cellar of emotional bottles
With and entire wall
Dedicated to how much I hate
Absolutely loving you
For everything you are and could be
I saw potential an us
Now I only see me
Looking through icy windows
Frostbite nipping
As the warmth of your heart
Will never be mine to enjoy
I hate that I've accepted this
I love how you don't know
So I'll fill another bottle
While emptying a real one
Swap pain for drunkenness
Disperse the feelings I have
Leaving only cobwebs and bottles
To age and be forgotten
Till another poor soul
Tries to enter my cellar soul

I loved once
It's easy to say where it went from there
When all anything seems to do is fail

Loves dangerous game
Kills painfully without mercy
Choking his victims heart
Clouding their vision with false love

He waits patiently for them
Then he strikes with harsh words
He whispers  in your ear
You forgive him because you love him

You think he loves you
But he loves the blood that will spill
Loves dangerous game
Where love always wins

He tells you lies
And feeds your heart poison
He slowly kills you
Then he sinks his teeth in

Tearing your heart out
Fully killing you and leaving you
Inches from deaths extended hand
But you manage a smile

Your strong and you know it
Bleeding from the inside
But the mask covers it
False smiles forever showing

Poetry flows with the hatred
Loves dangerous game
You fell victim to
Not knowing if you will survive

That son of a b** you cry
Thinking how could he do this
But you already know the the answer
He has no remorse and no heart

He's a criminal mastermind
Kiilling you without killing you
Making you feel like your not important
Than the voices get louder

Cursing yourself for your stupidity
Not knowing if you can love again
His face scaring your eyelids
Making you awake from the nightmares

Crying and screaming
Kicking and sweating
Thinking your drowning
Choking on your blood

The pains too much
You miss his touch
Then you cut your wrist
Adding a sick twist

Wandering why you can't sleep
Popping pills by the bounty
Livin  at the bottom of the bottle
Waking up from the nightmare

Loves dangerous game
You fell victim to
You hunt him down
Hopping to find his ****** heart

Stabbing the knife where his heart belongs
It disappears in his chest
He slits your throat
Deaths extended hand you grab

Now who's the fool
You were his tool
Death came to you
Sweet like victory

He finished what he started
A smile crosses your face
Blood flows like a river
He drinks his fill

Loves dangerous game
You fell victim to
Lived your life in the shadows
Buried without a tear

Nothing on your tombstone
Your a lost memory
You finished your story too soon
Not the life you could of lived

You were important to somebody
The boy that watched you die
Your own son couldn't bear the pain
Now he's dying inside without a mother

How low can you go
Before the feeling becomes a high
Trapped in a stasis
Where you simply float
If I traveled through the earth
To describe it
I'd simply exit back to where I stood
If I pushed past the atmosphere
I'd simply drift off
Growing far higher than your imagination
So if I stood in place
Miming the statues of atlantis
I'd still be higher
Than an existence you don't know
So when I say I'm low
I'm really high
You just can't see
Fathom the idea
Because if not for me
You'd never understand
Exactly how high you are
On those pedestals
Someone else put you on
Without realizing
No one will do the same for me

Make your own he said
In then out
Good to bad
Bad to good
When does it balance out
Attempt after attempt
Wishful thinking
Optimism stretched
How do you make luck
What's the recipe
The secret ingredient I'm missing
I've ran through my seasons
Written down each amount
Tried again using more and less
I'm no 5star Michelin chef
Only a home cook
Aspiring to create a dish
My family and me can enjoy
For the remainder of our days
Passing on the recipe I've acquired
Is it wrong it's not my life
I don't want to change anymore
I don't wish for anything else
Only the life I dream
For the ones who helped me
Get this far in my life
Even when they don't know
The wars I've fought alone
I'm simply a general
Wishing to feed his army
So they can become another's sword
When the firing squad receives me
Luck they say
Four leaf clovers
Mythical pots of gold
Awaiting at rainbows end
Riddles to be solved to obtain it all
So riddle me this
Where does luck come from
When luck is only a perception

The only tears I want to wipe away
Is my own
But they don't come without a price
I have lost so much already
Nothing really phases me
I could watch the world crumble
No remorse
I could strip life from innocence
And no tears shall fall
Is it because I have become oblivious
To what I have become
Due to the lust I have felt
Of not feeling anymore pain
Or is it the lust for a tear to fall
From desert eyes
I just need one
Whether it be blood
Or acid
One tear to fall from my vacant depressed eyes
Will make it easier for me to cope
With these bottled emotions
Because I can't throw them into the sea
I will be the only thing to drown

Heard an old blues band out front
Walking down the banks of the Mississippi
Made me think of you
"I lost my baby"
The old guitar playing its final tunes
"In fields of clovers"
I can see you now dancing
"Where did she go"
Happily smiling never wanting to stop twirling
"In the arms of another"
Gone. Ripped from a heart
To stubborn to admit its missing a beat
The old guitar stops
Old man looks out on the water
Whispers
"Made me think of you"
His last song was about a woman
Loved and lost
Because she didn't know her heart was true
He waited
59 years
Never came
Same song
Same guitar
Never tuned
Never good
But he waited at the same old bar
Hoping for one chance
To just say goodbye

It feels like yesterday
I fantasized about
Making love at midnight

Now its just a distant memory
I love you
And the *** never mattered

I only wanted you
But the world slipped away
And you wouldn't hear me out

I don't want to say goodbye
But if your life is happier without me
I'm gone forever

Making love at midnight
Just a dream I had with you
So lets talk about this

Before we hurt ourselves
With irrational decisions
Produced by irrelevant feelings

I'll sit and listen to everything
That I know you want to say
And hopefully you will do the same

Making love at midnight
Only possible if we make up
And you allow me to say I'm sorry

They said it was impossible
But they're not desperate enough
They're not me
Not even close
This darkness always engulfing me
It's time I build a flashlight
In this oblivion
And make my own light
At the end of this never ending tunnel
They said you can't manufacture happiness
Well meet my new company
Making happiness in the dark
Bringing back the dead
Breathing life into the suffocated
Finally replacing the mirror
To repair the broken reflection

I would ask you for a chance
Sure I'm not everything
Most girls want in a man
But I only want to make one thing
My ultimate goal
To make you happy
Finally put the blade down
Sleep for what feels a lifetime
I want to be your lifeline
Maybe I don't deserve you
Maybe I'm being overwhelming
I don't know
So...uhm...can I call you baby?
Can I ask you to give me a chance?
I only want it if you think I deserve it
I really like you
Ask me why, I dare you
I have no reason not too

This ship setting sail
Destined to sink
A whole crew disappeared
No bodies found
Mayday!
Somebody come and save us
Mayday!!
Please I'm begging you
Is anybody out there?!
I'm drowning in the sorrow
The seemingly endless questions
I just need a savior
Not bleeding from a cross
I need a hand in the dark
A reason to pull myself out of this
I'll just keep falling back in
Slipping deeper and deeper every time
MAYDAY!
Can someone answer me
MAYDAY!!
Please I'm begging
IS ANYBODY OUT THERE?!
Guess I'm just another soul lost out at sea

i still hear the screams
of the tortured souls
as i walk the path
which runs though
the meadows of pain

i still smell the blood
that spilled from the bodies
i stepoff the path
and images of death
race through my mind

cursed meadows of pain
tearing a hole so deep
so sinister and dark
i lose myself

the wrath of a lunatic
cursed this land
now i am reliving
the dreaded nightmare
in the meadows of pain

these meadows known as
the meadow of pain
took lives destroyed families
now i am honored
by burning these memories
in the meadows of pain

as the inferno blazes
i see the smiles of those
who have been murdered
and the hatred
in the eyes of the maniac

with nothing left of
the meadows of pain
all that remains is ash
no more will there be
the meadow of pain

The repair of my mind
is not as easy as it once was.
I am broken. Longing to be fixed. Longing to be able to heal myself. Working slowly day by day to heal another piece that has grown
gray with lack of light.
Fading to black I fear
Duct tape and super glue
Only holds the fragments
Of this mirror mind
Reflecting constant strain
Emotions
Pulled tugged stressed
Mentally damaged
Spider webbing to my heart
I can't take much more
I need an escape
A back door to these fractures
I endure falling
Trying to capture
Juggling before they shatter further
Gashes open up
My insides are slowly showing
Mental becomes physical
Only so much I can hide
Spotlighted to those who know me best
Foreshadowed to others who don't
This picture show of horror
Generating more fears
How do I ask for help
When it's becoming too much for me
Alone I thought I could handle this
Face my demons
I now know
I need a bigger monster
To keep me from being consumed
And if I'm still to fall
I won't have done it alone
I'll call it a victory
If someone could love me
In those final seconds

It's become a tradition
Good days bad days
Good weather bad weather
No matter the season
A few cups of coffee later
My focus has returned
Cigarette will follow
A short walk in the cold
You on my mind
A life I'll never have
Her my future
No one seems to be apart of
I'm truly alone
Even though I hate it
I've grown accustomed to it
I know I'll have these small cups
As a constant reminder
It's the small things in life
I either enjoy now
Or envy later on

Keeping me awake at night
Tossing, turning, gears churning
Funerals filled with tears
Swimming pools of sorrow
Caskets carried away in the current
What would happen when I'm gone
Who will my kids become
Who will she marry after I'm gone
Does this life really end
Do I time travel every time I close my eyes
Will I open them come first light
Or will that dark void finally devour my soul
Did I ever exist when tomorrow comes
Guess thats my question
Is it the seconds before me I fear
Or the moments that I'll never enjoy
Scare me the most
Everything fades but why does it hurt so bad

Wouldn't you say I'm the saddest of them all
Pathetic in existence
A waste of space
Won't you please leave a trace
Of the beauty I thought I had
It makes me sad
That all I do is cry
All mother ask is why
Oh Mirror Mirror on that wall
Will you show me the biggest scar of them all
The ones on my wrist
Where I gave the blade a simple twist
The one on my chest
Trying to give my heart a rest
Oh Mirror Mirror on that ruined wall
Wont your cracks show me when I'll fall
Into the arms of deaths sweet grasp
Not worrying about how much time will elapse
Before my mother finds the letter I hid
The one I wrote when I was a kid
Oh Mirror Mirror no longer hanging from that wall
It seems you were the one to fall
Before I could take my leave
One more breathe our chest shall heave
Since no one cared to fix us
And give us one last chance

Your me
You have the same scars
In all the same places
Yet there is one big difference

Your a girl
Maybe no younger then 15 or 16
I'm a dude
Of 17 years of age

Mirror mirror
Quite the opposite
Because your a girl
But looks nothing like me

The scars are emotional
The torment is mental
The physical attraction irrelevant
Simply because we are so much alike
And I don't, can't, and won't love myself

No laughter
No pitter patter
Little feet running down halls
Playing tag
Counting to five
I feel the weight
Loneliness without her
Tsunami of sadness
Giggles with every tickle
Chuckles when Daddy dances dumbly
Peek-a-boo behind curtains
Hide and go seek
Jump startles when she's around the corner
Coloring crayons littering tile floors
Baby girl I can't wait
Finally be able to see you again
Tickle till you ***
Swing you around
Teach you to fly
Make you Mac and cheese
Chicken nuggies and peas
I miss you like crazy
Gentle hugs
Tiny hands wrapping around my neck
Blue eyes prettier than the ocean
When it kisses a bluer sky
Blowing kisses when I leave for work
Hating to say goodbye
Even if it's for 5 minutes
I miss you like crazy
High fives and E.T moments
Rocking you to sleep
Watching you grow with every passing second
I hate it has to be this way
Daddy's doing all he can
Just to make you smile
One more time
You'll never remember
I'll never remind you
A rough patch
We'll get through eventually
Even if it's not soon enough for me
I'll teach you the strength
To always keep moving forward
Leave no room for negativity
Till then
Star bright star light
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have this wish
I wish every night
For my little princess
To grow happy and healthy
Forever and always

Youre a walking simile
Comparing you to the sun
A mere joke
Comparing you to the cosmos
Still not beautiful enough
A waterfall stretching out to horizon
As waves gently kiss the sky
Nothing compares
You're a deep metaphor
Understood by bodies
Felt in hearts
Rejected by minds
As ******* spread
How can you cause so much attraction
With only a sentence
You're the embodiment of poetry
Yet still defy the laws of human emotion
You tear our souls from flesh
Turn us into ink on paper dance floors
Youre a ***** secret
Naughty by nature
Loving embrace always on standby
Youre a mistress in the dark
A mystery hidden from the world
But someday I'll have to say goodbye
And you'll forget my name
In the pages of your soul

You bow to only one master
You're heavenless edge
Knows only blood and strife
You ravage wrinkled villages
Execute orphans that witnessed pained
You modern samurai
When does your blood lust end
When does leaving scars
Stop turning into ******
Another swing
Another wrist torn open
Another slash
Another **** on hips meant to hypnotize
Our youth can't survive 
Your homicidal tendencies
They only want to be shown love
Yet you tempt them with teeth bore
Stealing midnight kisses 
In shadows of their tears
Awakening only more fears
You modern samurai
Lay down your sword
It'll only bring you more pain
No need for armor
Lend me your burdens
Bury your worries 
Sheath your past
Walk into a future
One designed by your own hand
No need for acts of seppuku
This world holds too many sorrows
Hiding from this life
You'll never be able to face death
You modern Samurai
Hold steady your ways of honor and courage
But fight no more
Grow old and wise
Teach the young the way
Of a swordless Samurai

I've set myself of the highway to success
Got caught in the traffic
Decided to walk
Got bored so I ran
That's where I went wrong
I've always had plans for myself
Sometimes they were big
Other times they were just a nuisance idea
That ricocheted in and out of my mind
I had my moments of fame
Now I'm just a has-been
Sitting at the computer
Reading the work I wish I could enjoy one more time
Drinking whiskey to hide the tears
I came to terms that I'll never be anything
I'll just be the kid with a talent that came and went
Always remembering the moments of fame
I never truly had
I'll never have back
What else to do
When everything I do
Is just like when I write poetry
Bleak and useless

You've ****** me too many times
You've never listened to me
So when you see
The dark shadow
Standing at the foot of your bed
Smell the sweet fragrance of decay
Taste the blood spilled from wrist due depression
Hear the deafening silence created by hate
Feel the cold bone chilling breeze
As murderous thoughts whisper
You've disregarded me too long
Now feel my 6 inch blade
Cold steel
Rip through your chest
Plunge into your lungs
Cut your wrist
Peel your flesh from weak muscles
Trying to scream
But it's already too late
I showed you what happens
When you refuse to love me
I want you to listen
Just listen
To murderous thoughts
That scream in my head

Call me insane now

In the bible, they say it is a sin to ****
It also says that thou shall not lie
Yet you all lie when you have the acronym R.I.P
Carved into the headstone
Of your son or daughter
You have the preacher man say a few words
"He's in a better place now'
How is he in a better place now
If he committed a sin and killed
He also stole
His mothers heart away
His fathers pride *** he broke down in tears
His sisters trust as he took his last breath
He stole everything from everybody
And stole his life away
As he began to drown in the depression
That seemed to be invisible
He carved into his bedroom wall
The title off his favorite book
The very book he wrote
****** Written With Perfection
Telling of every dark secret
Telling of the depression
The outline and blueprints of his decision
To commit several sins
As a way to rebel against the society
That decided his *** was the new temple of god

Seeing your angelic face
Smiling and in the arms of another
Brings memories of you in mine
But also brings the pain I will never forget

These memories
This pain, anger, and hatred
They are my burden to bear now
I just wish the weight wasn't so much

Knowing you let me go
And I can't do the same to you
Makes the weight even more unbearable
**** I just want to give up

Collapsing under these burdens
Is my only resort
No help within reach
And my cries no longer loud enough

These racing thoughts add even more weight
And I don't want to drop these burdens
Because you were the best thing That ever happened to me

All the pain, anger, and hate
Burning so intensely
Threatening to consume what remains of me
Prevents me from finding peace

it sent me to hell
it sent me to die
it made me lie
i try to keep it in a cell

it wont let me sleep
it wont leave me alone
it has an eerie moan
it made girls weep

it wont **** just me
now its black as night
never to see light
its a criminal to be

it plays a dangerous game
now it sick and twisted
their souls are listed
leaving me full of shame

my dangerous heart
i cant trust it now
its killing me inside
as i try to hide
for i will not bow

death shall come sweet
the pain is endless
im totaly mendless
as i listen to its beat

Sure this is not going to be a speech
I'm not Abraham Lincoln
I'm not using ancient
Out of date vocabulary
But I just want to say
I'm free once you sign
Here on the dotted line

I'm wishing on every shooting star
Counting seconds waiting for 1:11
Hoping nobody catches you
Before I can get to you
I'm running past vehicles
Bystanders pacing back and forth
Realizing its an angel falling from grace
This is my Fairytale
Telling you I love you
Knowing **** well I'd hate to love another
Yet this is your nightmare
Someone you barely know
Saving you from a destined fate
Whispering he loves you through text messages
You fear the happiness
Reject the obvious
Refuse my voice an echo
Maybe I'm looking at this all wrong
**** happens
You have a life
Why do I feel obligated to put myself first
In the long list of things that need your attention
I apologize
My ****** prison barred heart
Had never had an opportunity quite like this
The chance of parole
The key setting me free
It's the excitement
That maybe I finally found my peace
My center in a fluctuating gravity
My nirvana in a world captivated in hell
Maybe this is becoming both of our nightmares
Fairytale flies out the window
Every time I say I love you
Maybe I'll say it like this
You. Are. Indeed. Everything. I. Dreamed. About.
The reason to walk away from car wrecks
Slightly bleeding completely beaten
And I'll do it a thousand more times
Just to be able to say I survived for you

They say we are insane
Emotionally detached
Gay because we express ourselves
In words that can move mountains
We are strong
So what if we are always wrong
This is our ******* song
That we sing
As we pick ourselves up
Dust the days judgement off
Keep our chins high
And ask for another shot
So give us your best
My fellow poets
Walk through fire
Drown in the tears
Hide the fears
And say "We're not going anywhere"
Hahaha
We take your *******
Poets
Thats what we are
Young and old
Wise and reckless
Loved and hated
Yet here we are
HERE WE ARE!!!
Try to bring us all down together
Your funeral
We are strong
So what if we are always wrong
This is our ******* song
That we sing
All as one
The biggest band of misfits
The social and antisocial
The bruised and broken
My people
My congregation
Hahaha
My fellow poets
MY FELLOW POETS!!!
Wanna **** with us now
When you see the legions
Rising from the shadows
WE ARE ONE
WE ARE POETS
All we ever will be
We are strong
So what if we are always wrong
This is our ******* song
That we sing
Just to forget our judges

I'm a survivor of 3 car wrecks
I'm no god
I'm an athiest till day I see one
I'm in love with the idea of love
I'm no man
I'm the boy hiding under his blanket
To scared of the night
I'm an orphan to emotions
Yet I still feel
The jaded truth to me
I'm just a mask
I'm a name with no face
A body without a soul
A life no longer worth living
If you saw me
You'd only know I'm as dead as corpses
I'm the jester making everyone laugh
Hiding tears so the mascara doesnt run
I'll take a bow making sure
I keep my head down when I leave the stage
I'm shakespeares tragedy come to fruition
I'm the chalkline on pavement
The bodybag only filled with sorrow
I'll take this time to bid goodbye
Idk if I'll survive this car wreck
The collision of rusty twisted steel with flesh
I only know the intent of why I'm walking the gallows
I'm a ghost coming and going
So maybe its my que
To take my final absence