I'm crying picturing your broken heart

Such a shameful waste of love
So goodnight

It's past 9 o'clock now
So I know you should be asleep
The nurse
Passed through for her rounds
The machines
Humming and murmuring
With an electric glow
I walk through the corridors
To your place of rest
Last one on the left
Your eyes are closed
As I enter the room
You smile, weakly
My eyes
Filled with grief
Deciding whether to tell you
How many hours I cried
Alone in the shower
In our bed
Without your warmth
So I sit with you for a while
Until you drift away
I'll be here
I'll help answer all the questions
And I hear you say
You think they'll let you go home tomorrow
But my love
You've never left home

My care for you will never go away
It is engrained
Carved into my skin
Intricate
Invisible
Confident
Excruciating
Pumped through body and mind
You were always safe
You were always loved

No I never said her name aloud, or around you
Fainted collections by the bedside
Never known from the emotions felt
Prayers
Things families kept
My west side bedroom
And you didn't understand
Just how much it hurt you
The night time shell
You remained
Faded in my image
Turned away
Burnt out in shadows
Clothes in the closet
I wept the whole way home
Designed by the day
By the pain we realized
Prior to twisted agony
Never feeling how the road sways
I'll still be losing blood
Deep ocean drowning
Kick
Losing breaths
Looking from the lights of the aftermath

It doesn't have to be like this

Infinite years past
To dig with impatience
Seems like forever to you now
There's nothing here
But betrayal
Twisted words
Depths unknown even to you
Pleading
Again
To go home
Forbearing a tainted helix
Your fingerprints
Not much to see
But stained with rage
We beg for love
But are given faith
However durable
Unquenched
In the simplest of ways