I felt you leaving
I saw your foot inching out the door

You left
But my world kept turning

I don't know why I'm surprised

I cannot be any clearer

I cannot launch myself any harder
in your direction

I cannot spend another night wondering if you are
thinking of me
or her

While I’m over here
   alone
   feeling every lovely feeling for you
   full of beautiful words for you
   wanting you in a way I have never wanted another human being

I have to wonder if you’re even sleeping alone

You and I
Are careening
Through the open air.
Our colors are
Mesmerizing,
Marbled and spinning.

Loving you is
Watching a soap bubble fly.

Our colors swirl.

We're enchanting.

But I can't help it,
I'm holding my breath,
Waiting for that
Inevitable
*pop

This time last week
I was holding you.
For the first time,
I was tasting you,
Clinging to someone
Who seemed so solid.
This time last week
I was smiling against kisses
I was sure were the first of many.
This time last week,
I was planning out a thousand
Days happily by your side.
This time last week I had no idea
You'd be gone so fast.
This time last week
You whispered promises
In my ears and all over me,
Showed me where your favorite places
To kiss me were.
This time last week,
I said "stay."
I had no idea that
now
You'd be already over me,
Flying back into old flames.
What a difference 168 hours can make.

1.
I am drawn to you
stealing glances across rooms
Pray you notice me

2.
I’m drawn into you
You are staining me like ink
The stars brought us here

3.
I am drawn to you
like a curtain, blank-faced stares
all we’re sharing now