Shout it from the rooftop
scream it to the sea
wave your hands
take a stand
nobody's listening

You will never lose my love
O Jehovah
Your's is an enduring love
Humility is your cup
For you have allowed
The most rebellious
To stand in your rightful place
Teaching us consequences
realities
You love truth & justice
You love what is good
You hate what is bad
You have shown your strength
in the face of adversity
Independent of you
Mankind will always fail
Setting up walls for greed to enter
Men destroy themselves
In war, injustice,
Tearing apart the family bond

Boundaries
are what you will tear away
From the earth
A human family is your desire
Your stand is strong as stone
Your decisions are unmoveable
Trustworthy are your ways
The right belongs to you
You are merciful beyond the meaning
In the end all will bow low
All will understand
You have made life
You have sacrificed
More than any being could imagine
You are worthy to rule
You are the rightful owner

Believing was easy
When nothing else mattered
When nothing happened
Call me gullible
Call me naive
I suppose

You might call
me easy
I was...
If anything
I was easygoing

Hey
Call me whatever you want

All I know
Is myself
sunk so low
spilling life
As if
I lived a hundred years
all in one day

My puzzle no longer fits
abstract now
Though far from artistic
I hardly know
What to call it

There's only one thing
I understand
Life after death
Is anything but easy

One before I drift
pushing away from the dock
I reach over to set the alarm clock
lying back again in my little canoe
floating in ripples of soft calm
waves
gliding and sliding away
into peaceful thoughts
tucking in tight
I bid you all
sweet dreams and goodnight

I think the sky's been feeling like I do lately
It's been crying for days
Rumbling loudly crying out in agony
Covered in angry outbursts

I'm riding this marry go round called life
I'm trying to jump off but it's going so fast
round and round without end

Walking through a jungle of hidden truths
half stories; searching for something I cannot comprehend

Desperation sure as truth has a woman baffled at herself
Something to cure the sickness
Something to ease this pain
Not too deep, just enough to close the book

I was too nice to you
Always patiently waiting
Forgiving every mistake
Trying to
forget every outburst
Always hoping for you
Praying for you too
Wanting you
Loving you


Truth is

I was always...
just too good for you

He was set in his ways
knew just who
& what he wanted

He wanted her, but
she wasn't quite sure
So she stuck around
for the fun
A few months in she
Started to fall

Well that's the way
Love begins after all..

The chase

After a while he
let her grow on him
even though inside
He swore he would be
The bachelor debonair
Everyone knew him to be

Til the day he die
Come what may
He'd never be tied down
Or made to stay

She wanted love
she needed it
She saw he also wanted
More than this

So they fell in love
Shut the rest out

Turn the page
8 years down the line
two more added
to the family tree
the first 2 years
were wonderful
Her dream come true
The next 8
We're all downhill


The hardest times came
Their love
so frail
She couldn't fight
Anymore
She couldn't keep it together
She wasn't strong enough
I guess it wasn't forever

Through the years
She died a thousand deaths
There was nothing left
Her heart turned to stone
Joy left her eyes
She quickly learned
She was always all alone


He had already moved on
before they ever were apart
Without a second thought
He had found new life
He had broke her heart

Truth hurts?
Maybe so
But for those
With the guts
To say it like it is
Truth
Is therapeutic

Your accusational tendencies tell on you
You must've thought I was so naive
I am not startled nor am I amazed at you
It is as you usually do....and so
you leave your heart open
leaving it there on your sleeve
In a burst of emotion
you'll blame it all on me

I caught a glimpse of you today
In a moment of reminiscing
shared in a word

I longed for yesterday today
The sound of your smile
on the line; I was buried  
in a blanket thought of comfort

The smallest hint of satisfaction
came through today,
after my expression

Today your sound
runs through my senses

If flowers bloom in the snow
if life peeks through concrete
If the earth continues to grow
come what may
If trees stay rooted so deep
If new life is found in oceans
& the study of our surroundings
is unending treasures
Since such is the case
We could live forever
If we were never melancholy
If we could stay busy
If there were only happy things
to do or say
that would keep our interest
If money were non existent
If nothing had a price
If sickness & death were of the past
and age stayed in the prime of life
If energy were abundant
and love ruled as king
We could live forever
& we'd never want for anything

Don't you worry about me
I'll take the good with the bitter
Words are something
Repeated
Over and over

I consider it all joy
Even when we suffer
Like the string from my sweater
Snagged and unraveled
barely a thread left

Because
it never was mended
you see my dear
I've been suffering
as long as I can remember
What is one more day

"Honey honey honey honey"
You say that like it means nothing
Just the same as you said "sugar"
Spead it all over til it's dulce ******

I stared into the glossy eyes
of a stranger
A master illusionist is he
But they were your eyes
so I misunderstood it all

Loyalty at it's finest
A steady heart made of gold
Filled with good intent
A tiny bit selfish but mostly selfless
Helpful without complaint
Honest to a fault and truth
That can be measured
Balanced
Laughter with sincerity
Humble and at your service
Tears that pour only when troubled
So please don't trouble me
This description
Is what he misses
This desription is me

Why don't you just confess?
You could make this an easy process
See I don't care about your past
I've already expressed that
You just can't expect what you expect
or pretend like you want me back
Then turn right around to her
wishing I would just accept that
I am burned, I agree I am torn up
More confused than I can see
In fact
The only thing I can see clearly
is the fact that you no longer want me

Like
the pendulum swings
Time repeats
A continuos motion
Causing
Monotonous
Unforgiving often
That's the story
Of
Time's motion

Could you be
For just a moment
Pardon me
I wasn't being facetious
I am serious
Yes
Even though we had a fling
Whatever you call
That thing
Whatever it was that
Threw me for a loop
Commitment was clearly
Not what you wanted to do
How simply wrong
I am utterly confused
One day you want me
The next I feel used
So yes I am serious
I did only want you
But not anymore
Not since you twisted my brain
Didn't even care
Caused my heart so much pain
So yes I am serious
Especially when I say
This can't even be friendship
Starting today

I'm so selfish
That's what you say
Like it was written in stone
As if it's the only explanation

So I'm the culprit
That's what you say
As if it were truth
As if there is only one side

I took everything
That's what you say
Like you are a victim
And I am a monster
As if I provoked your anger

I should have just listened
That's what you say
Like you were a wonderful example
As if we could have no fear

I should have submitted
That's what you say
As though you are not hypocritical
Like I could fully trust you
At least
*That's what you say

I let myself drown in you
I let myself go
I let my emotion take precedence
let nonsense take over
I have no one else to blame
Only I can control
Self
But I can't help myself
You are all I wanted
And the saddest thing
Is the more you refrain
The less I want to give
The farther apart we swim
Until we cannot find each other any longer
I cannot let you
Take me over

He doesn't call
He doesn't try
He let go after all this time

Together they fall
Separated they fly

He thinks he's God's gift
God wouldn't make her cry

Or leave her guessing
He would dignify
No need to question
Not a doubt in sight

Our gift is emotion
pain, grief and the occasional humor
ease what ails
We are unique, unbridled
free to express on a whim
the heavy burden in our minds
We release our cares onto listening ears
making the load easier to carry
In this way we share the weight
Someone expresses thanks
and becomes a  blessing
Making the emotion bearable
creating a smile
In this instance
we are gifts to each other