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1.2k · Dec 2014
paralyzed
Refal akram Dec 2014
Nothing but tragedy,yet all i feel is pain, **** me & take it all away

All the misery,all the pain,all the sleepless nights & the hurtful things

nothing feels good anymore,i wish i could change it all

i wish i could so i would,then it would've been a peaceful sin

Simple to you,impossible to me,for me it never sounded that easy

Dead inside yet alive,Thanks to you i'm paralyzed.
#love #pain #forgiveness #tragedy
1.1k · Mar 2015
not the same anymore
Refal akram Mar 2015
I try to get busy as much as i can

Thoughts get louder as i try to calm myself down

I'm not the same,not anymore..

looking at my past trying to see,what made me fall for you even though i knew we couldn't grow more

don't leave me even if you know we're wrong

please hold me and tell me that it's okay

yet don't try to calm me ,tears will come out anyway.
#pain #love #life #fights
796 · Jan 2014
My surrender
Refal akram Jan 2014
it all comes to me in flashes

moving forward without you is something i never recommended

Drowning in my tears, that's what happened after i surrendered

what did i do and why? i'm stupid cause i still want you and cry.
733 · Jan 2014
sleepless nights
Refal akram Jan 2014
those sleepless nights got the best of me,when all i can actually think about is you and me
looking at the stars hoping you're watching too,making a wish that could link us two
imagination is the best thing i could do,expectation's the hard part when i don't have you
you're already thousand miles away,yet my heart makes it feel like its ten feet away
god knows how much i try,rewinding the memories to help us rise.
695 · Apr 2015
let me in
Refal akram Apr 2015
Can't you hear my heart beats?,or can't you feel it raise?
i'm here on the sidewalk trying to think of a place..
not connecting,not at all, trying to think of what made us fall.
fear is what's holding us back,but yet i wonder isn't it what is supposed to make us last?
let me in & hold me then,make me feel what you've been holding ever since, the heart wants one thing & the mind wants another.
why not go with what gives us the most pleasure ?
#love #pain #struggle #walls #fear
688 · Jan 2014
far away
Refal akram Jan 2014
flashbacks ,flashbacks all over the place

where your shadow follows along even if you've never been there

Scars,scars all over me,no one can heal them cause no one can see

but you,you look right through me,if you only knew the new me

Try,try ,if you could only give it a second try

i'm not moving,i'm not over you,my heart tells me it's all for you

it never died,it was never gone..

even if you're distance away your love grows in me every single day.
Refal akram Jan 2014
you motivate me to go further , you push me to do good things

my inspiration is you , my motivation's with you

nothing goes wrong, it all feels good & right

after your gone i'm never gonna reach that height

stay here, stay still , when i'm with you i'm all up & thrilled

nothing feels the same nothing makes me happy this way

you complete me that's all i'm gonna say.
625 · Aug 2014
only you.
Refal akram Aug 2014
you make it hard to breathe,make me feel so much beneath
what went wrong? ,what have i done?
feels like nothing would get you to come.
you were the home i felt welcomed in,the right place where my heart fell in.
it's only you from the top to the end,for you i shall fight to the End.
591 · Sep 2014
perfectly simple picture
Refal akram Sep 2014
There ain't no way of getting over you
i try to hide the **** that i've been through
this perfectly simple picture that i drew of me & you
can't hide any sick fall that we've had before
i hang it on the wall in case i forgot one day
how beautiful this love is that gave me life today.
552 · Apr 2016
Who i truly am
Refal akram Apr 2016
Walking slowly trying to connect the dots, now i realize how much i ****** up hard, hurting feelings, my game so strong, wasn’t much appealing till i got my heart torn, walking in your shoes,not much to see,Only Sorrows and a wish for “me”, forgive me I’m still trying to understand, how can a man like you love me after knowing who I truly am?
548 · Nov 2014
down on the ground
Refal akram Nov 2014
Down,down on the ground,shocked cause no One's around

Blur is all i see,not a reflection of you and me

hope is no where to be found..still i'm falling to the ground

help me,please look after me,with you there's nowhere i'd rather be

Fix me and walk me thru,let me be the one there for you

Say i'll stay for an eternity,and let you out of this misery.
519 · Jan 2015
broken glass
Refal akram Jan 2015
It's hard to keep up & even harder to move on
Falling stars got no shine in the dark, push push push..
you keep on pushing  it to the limit, don't ask why i exploded in a second
love is what's keeping us together, yet i wonder if "us" is gonna be forever
not enough, not even close,cold feet and broken floors.
work hard let's find a chance cause you know there's no stars in this broken glass, so fragile my heart has been, tries to function in spite of all these things.
#pain #love #fragile #fight
515 · Dec 2014
you
Refal akram Dec 2014
you
I've fallen so many times hoping i'll get to you
been down for the longest time still waiting for you
It got me so long to realise i had no chance with you
guess now dead or alive it wouldn't matter to you
Days now shall pass by differently,time is all it takes to make my pain fade tardily ..
it's me who's hurt & it's you who's gone ,looking at it this way makes it even harder to move on.
499 · Jan 2014
once again
Refal akram Jan 2014
full of misery , full of pain.. my heart is broken once again

been torn up and shut down ,life is a b*tch as i lie down

took me a while to stand up again, after all this time i broke down big time with a smile on my face

pretending it didn't affect me at all , i'm made of steal ,keep scratching as i hold on.
402 · Sep 2014
put up a front
Refal akram Sep 2014
So sick & i can't let go,broken hearted & here i go
put a smile and walk away, cut the things that you were supposed to say.
for me?  it's been the same anyway..
scar after scar, my heart might stop healing
put up a front that can be appealing
love is harsh? Try this and feel it.
340 · May 2021
Lost inside
Refal akram May 2021
No way to run from you but get back in.
My heart aches for you, please let me in.
Cold feet, I’m standing still, flashbacks of you and i before it went downhill.
Are we done? , you’ve walked away...
Shall i stay or save the wait?
You’re gone, its dark outside.
I’m cold, scared and lost inside...

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