It's always like this,

whenever I am happy --


I feel so lonely.

I wrote poetry to forget you;
But why does it hurt me further?

Footprints of size 1
Now of size 10.
Oh God, when did I grow up?!

Chairs of such small size
Now a throne of leather
Oh God, when did I grow up?!

Papers of drawing
Now a booklet of future
Oh God, when did I grow up?!

Skirts of small size
Now a formal blazer
Oh God, when did I grow up?!

In a distant corner
of my damaged heart
in a place
that I don't visit so often
I've kept your memories.
Each hug, each kiss that gave me life
yet left me gasping for breath
Each word that touched me more than your hands ever could.
I've kept everything
everything you never thought about twice but I could never forget.

"I'm an open book"
I said.

"Written in code"
He said.

"A code given to you when God made you mine"
I said.