I flicker and struggle to stay on
for I know what happens on this lonely corner
when I'm gone
if I leave them in the dark, nothing good
in my neighborhood, where sirens ring
and sneakers hang
then I go dark - at least I went out with a
BANG!

we all laugh
as the earth is dying
the rich smile
while the poor are crying
the world still turn
and fire still burn
and eat away entire forests
the hate and utter disregard for life
have filled out planet to the seams
its about to burst and so it seems
there will be nothing left for those to come
all because humans are so dumb

when I was down
you built me up
when I was broken
you fixed me
when I needed you
you where there
when I woke up
you where gone

I didn't know why he hurt me
but I wish I could forget
I don't remember when I started
but I wish I could quit
I couldn't make them love me
but I wish they'd take me back
I cant learn to be a part of the pack
but I wish they wouldn't leave me
i wouldn't be able to lie
and say i didn't wish i had a family
I wont survive if I jump
but I just wish I could fly

I wish I was silent.
Your words wouldn't be so violent
I'll stop seeing red, but a pastel violet
I just wish that I was quiet

I wish I wasn't so loud.
Maybe then you'd be proud
My words wouldn't draw a crowd
If I wished I didn't speak out loud

I wish I didn't always overshare
Spilling embarrassing secrets just so you'd care
So maybe one day I'll finally be aware
And I wish I didn't have to feel this despair

I just wish I wasn't ignored
But I didn't want myself to just be stored
And so that's when I poured and poured
I just wish I could get my reward.

I wish my mouth was sewn shut.
I could walk normally, instead of strut
Thanks for all your punches in the gut
I just wish I stopped talking, and so what?

for years I've had to roam
never really finding home
I've always felt so alone
till you came into my life
though there's still pain and strife
I know now I'll make it through
as long as I have you
in all I do I try to impress them
to be accepted
as one of their own  
i don't like feeling
but i want you to know
just how much
it means to me
that y'all let me be
a part of your family

when I really need them
the words wont come
neither will art,music,or
the one who left the one I need
so I turn to the things that never leave
yes they're unhealthy ,yes they could **** me
but just for a moment these things
they fill me with the calm I seek
the peace I need
as the blood begins to leak
all my thoughts start to leave
and as the smoke rises up
my mind follows
so I don't have to think
or remember the pain
so I'm not the same
I'm funny and calm
its stupid I know
but don't tell me that
cause I remember when I had no where to go
you turned your back
you left me alone
to deal with the lack
of love or father or even a home
so I found a way
I struggled to cope
but now you come back
just to say
I'm not living right
like I have no clue
that you messed up too
then you claim you're a new person
that you've changed
but that doesn't matter
cause I'm still the same