decorated, concealed
whitewashed, peeled
years of little earthquakes
will shake you

she is framed art hung, unsung
unknown to anyone
jilted, wilted
a still life flower
hanging ever crooked
upon the wall

i know i shouldnt touch your skin
or kiss you because
im not as clean as you expected (and here i mean
im musty and my smile is rotten)

and i knew i wouldnt last three days knowing
i am not enough for you
still, i am lasting a year and it
hasnt been that bad

(f)all
i like you so much, and if i
was ever confused about something
i swear i understood the gap between
attraction and affection
i swear
i swear

i hate what i look like and
what i am
and i hate my own scent
but you
            are
                 not
                      like
          me.


and we are terribly similar

every moment
my heart
beats
with the
rhythm
of
"you
are
mine
forever"

I don't think I want to meet him...
im only going to compare him to you and we both know ....
he WONT win...
So I doubt this weekend will be any fun like all of them before...
unless I get  really ***** and need  to have some and then not  talk to him anymore.....

but I don't think I will *** I only want you...
so please come talk to me so I know what I should do....

I wanted to have forever and share it with only you!!!

I wanted us to have happily ever after and I thought you did too...

We used to come up with ideas about things like the perfect 1st date.... Id think of the idea and set the scene and youd tell the rest of the story and make the ending beyond great!!!

That's what got me to really have a deep desire to at the very least be able to meet you.....
with your way with words...you put a spell on my but im sure you intended to....

I looked forward to our very long talks that we had at least once a day... you made me smile and it made me a lot happier then how I was living day to day!!!

I really loved spending time online that summer each day with you....
I just never thought in my wildest dreams that I would ever meet you...

The stories wed make up and you always ended them so very sweet... got me all ga-ga over you and the flames for that love has yet to loose its heat...

I really wish we could see each other for just one more day.....
to be able to talk and say the things we never had got to say.....

I just wish so very much that maybe someday down the line.....
again I will be able to feel your touch.....
*** in my heart your always going to be mine.