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Mar 2016 s

i'm not on drugs but i'd probably be happier if i was stoned

Mar 2016 s

L

i'm not on drugs but i'd probably be happier if i was ******

what does it mean to matter
what does it mean to be needed
why does everyone know the answers
why don't i
what does it feel like to belong
what does it feel like to fit in
why can't i understand
why am i here

nothing matters
and i've never felt needed
my questions go ignored
and so do i
i don't belong
i am a piece of the wrong puzzle
things are confusing
and i'm leaving today

this is such **** and i'm really sorry

Mar 2016 s

wtf

Mar 2016 s

L

***

let the lights come over you
and eat your soul away
and nothing is like it used to be
and you like it that way
sometimes when he says goodbye you wish he meant it
and sometimes when he says hello you can't help but regret it
he never seems like the man he is
lies aren't always told with words
and sometimes all you want is a hug.

Feb 2016 s

808 and counting

Feb 2016 s

L

808 and counting

you took my bad life and made it good
something in your hands stopped mine from shaking
something in your smile stopped me from breaking
and everything was better.

writing about happy things is really hard but i really love him and i've never been happier

Feb 2016 s

fuck you

Feb 2016 s

L

*******

what can i do to be unseen
unseen but still heard
how many days do i have to stay silent
the sound is deafening
and i am defeated.

this is about a boy who doesn't know what no means, and i don't know how to get over it.

Jan 2016 s

vulnerability means something different now

Jan 2016 s

L

vulnerability means something different now

nothing is the same with the lights on
your face can't hide anymore
and there are earthquakes in your hands

vulnerability means something different now
you're exposed and sometimes it feels right
sometimes it feels like nothing

nothing feels like the day you said hello
and goodbye
all at once

nothing feels like sleeping together
together
but so alone

leave the lights on
nothing feels like the shadows after you left
nothing feels like you

and vulnerability means something different now
and i see your face every time i catch a stranger's eye
and i wonder if i turned the lights on

would they see my face
would they see my past
would i feel something again

nothing is the same with the lights on
and everything feels like you
everything feels like you

uiefjdknmls;skjfbkvjnldkc;mkdjwefnvdsc **** me please

Jan 2016 s

cinderella

Jan 2016 s

L

cinderella

you get inebriated and scream at your walls to love you back
smashing bottle after bottle on the face in the mirror yelling "*******" and meaning "love me"
telling your pastor you're a ***** whose only price is someone who will listen
you'll take your clothes off for anyone who asks but hide from anything that makes you feel real
don't show them your crying eyes
don't tell them what you think about at night
just let them use you and it will all be okay
"it will all be okay"--
the words bounce around in your head like a pushpin in a balloon because what if it's never okay
stop--just keep going
just keep lying
smile, don’t frown, it will all be okay
maybe this time will make it okay
maybe this time will be different
maybe this one won't leave more holes in you than he can fill
maybe it will be okay
every man you meet becomes the next needle on your compass and you always end up lost
their eyes are your looking glass and their gaze captures everything you want to be
but crooked mirrors from crooked souls warp your view
and you wonder why your perception is skewed
distorting the things that they’ll never love thinking maybe it will be okay
maybe they'll stay
you're vulnerable on purpose
they know it and you don't care
you let them have you
all of you
soon there is nothing left
you drink to find yourself again
you get inebriated and scream at your walls to love you back.

different but honest

Dec 2015 s

I've Written A Few

Dec 2015 s

Annie McLaughlin

I've Written A Few

Why is it
that writing
suicide notes
has become
easier
than
apologies

#suicide #broken #sad #empty #note #apologize

Dec 2015 s

Medicated

Dec 2015 s

Alice Baker

Medicated

Love is a silhouette
And she dances on my shoulder
Stability is a shadow
And he likes to play a game
Insanity is a ghost
I'll never see him tamed.

Lol

#love #anxiety #insanity #silhouette

Dec 2015 s

First World Problem

Dec 2015 s

River

First World Problem

We're fat within our luxury
Entangled within capitalism, false advertising
Gossip, slander
Trivial first world pursuits
It's human nature to meander
But within the society of the first world's finite structure
We lose
Consumed in ruse
'Cause what other way do we amuse
Ourselves

We got everything
So why do we not spill over with joy
and sing?
Cause we're sitting atop our bounty
Wrapped in robes sitting on gold thrones
While the entire world lay in savage ruins
We turn to soothing
In our processed foods, our drugs, our infatuation with ***
We've lost the purpose to all of this
We have no definition
And without meaning
We go into regression
An entire nation suffering from depression.