Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

Relapsing,
Is
Just
Time
Collapsing.

If one day you woke up.
And i was gone,
Don't cry,  Don't grieve.
Don't write paragraphs about how much you  loved me.
Because,
When i was alone in my darkest hours,
You weren't the one that would stay up all night
And make sure i was alright.
Don't say i was a wonderful girl and  wonder
How people could be so cruel,
Because on some ways,
You were the reason i might've
Took my life that night.

“Roses are Dead, Violets are Crying,
My garden has wilted,
I got tired of trying,
The butterflies disappeared, i don’t feel them inside,
And i really do fear, that they have also died,
The vines are cut down,
The animals are lifeless on the ground,
My garden is vacant, nothing alive has
Been found, i’m falling asleep,
Everything is black, i’m actually happy,
There is no going back”

Don't  kiss me
If your afraid of
Thunder.
Because,
My life is
A
Storm.

I let you down and
I started to run,
Never meant to be your pain
Oh my god, What have i become?

"Angels can't fly"
She whispered.
And jumped.

I wanna be the Girl
She Gives her hoodie
to wear && Cuddles up
Next to when it's Cold,
She'll be the one who
Comes up Behind me,
Wraps her arms around
my waist,  Catches me off
Guard && Whispers, "Your  *Beautiful

Your favorite hug,
Your favorite mall  date,
Your favorite night,
Your favorite cuddle,
Your favorite kiss,
Your favorite Girlfriend.
(:

Getting obsessive about your weight?
"Your disgusting." She said to the mirror.
I was tortured everyday  by food.
Memories never die.
I'm not  pretty.
Not only am i fat, i'm stupid too.
So i don't eat.
"Fat pig! Stop eating!"
Fattening.
Memories never die.
I cannot  be "normal."
I truly hate myself.
"Eating makes me feel worse."
I just don't want to be fat anymore.
Thinner and Thinner.
Skin and Bones.
Feasting on  hunger.
My sadness had  returned.
Fat, fat, fat.
My thighs are also too big.
There's nothing left but to  die...
Little parallel slashes.
Does my stomach stick out.?
Do my thighs jiggle.?
Cut,starve, cut, starve, cut.
"******* cow! Greedy pig!"
The violent hatred of  fat.
I'm  tired  of me.
Have you  eaten?
Actively suicidal.
Eating disorders are addictive.
I'd rather starve.
I just don't feel  like eating.
Silent tears.
I know i'm ugly, Don't look  at me.
And i began to  cry again.
"You look like a pig."
I  have scars.
Eating less and less.
Don't let me get  fat.
Mirrors can **** and talk.
"Who's the fat freak?"
Calories scare me.
"Stop stuffing your fat face."
I  can't believe i'm so fat.
Loneliness, Depression, Anxiety.
"Thinner, it said. You need to get thinner."
Horrible dreams.
She killed herself deliberately.
It's  a secret i plan to take to my grave.
Low self-esteem.
I feel so heavy.
I feel so huge and bloated.
Sad and Tired.
She cried about what she had just eaten.
"Your fat jiggles!"
Fat body.
Decrease my  food intake.
I can't eat it.
She doesn't eat.

I would do absolutely
Anything  right now to be
Able  to snuggle up next  to
You, bury my head in your chest,
And  interlock  my fingers with yours.
I'd be  able to look up at you and
Smile whenever i wanted to.
I'd  be  able to lean up kiss you whenever
I wanted to.
I'd be able to tell you how  i feel about you whenever
I wanted to.

I want you for all you are,
The soft giggles and
The nightmare mumbles.

A
Drop
Of rain is
Like a sudden
Knock at the door.
Unexpected, yet often
Welcomed with a smile, it
Can brighten your day or ruin
Your plans. It can make you laugh
Or make you sad. Whether the raindrop
Is moving fast or slow, or is big or small,
It always gets everyone's attention. A rain-
Drop contains many secrets.  It is a bubble of
Anticipation and surprise. It cleanses the earth,
It feeds the flowers, And fills the holes. The  
Raindrop is never silent, it bangs on the
Roof, Spatters on the windows or,
Splashes into a puddle.
A Raindrop.

The truth?
I like you, A lot.
You make me happy,
You make me laugh,
Your smart,
Your different,
Your a little crazy,
And awkward,
And your smile alone can make my day. <3

A kiss is just a kiss until you
Find the one you love,
A  hug is just a hug until
You find the one you're
Always thinking of,
A dream is just a  dream,
Until it comes true,
Love was just a word until
The day i met you!

Slit your wrist,
Cut your thighs,
Fake a smile,
Dry your eyes,
Hate yourself,
Hate your life,
Welcome to my world of lies.

Cuts heal,
The memories stay,
Scars fade,
But i'm not okay.

I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of yelling.
I'm tired of being sad.
I'm tired of pretending.
I'm tired of being alone.
I'm tired of being angry.
I'm tired of feeling crazy.
I'm tired of feeling stuck.
I'm tired of needing help.
I'm tired of remembering.
I'm tired of missing things.
I'm tired of being different.
I'm tired of missing people.
I'm tired of feeling worthless.
I'm tired of feeling empty inside.
I'm tired of not being able to just let go.
I'm tired of wishing i could just start over.
I'm tired  of dreaming of a life i will never have.
But  Most  Of  All,  I'm  Just  Tired  Of  Being  **Tired

I wonder if
Teachers ever realize
That some of
The students sitting
In their class
Have serious
Mental  Illnesses
And are collapsing
Under pressure they
Put on them.

Your love was the most painful.
You love could ****.
You made my heart beat to hard where it hurt.
You gave me butterflies that had blades as wings...
You didn't care all though you  act like  you did.
You said  you loved me.
That was a lie.
You are a lie.
I wish my heart would stop beating for you,
I wish the butterflies would leave.
Since you hurt me why not just **** me?

And yes,
I will keep blaming myself.
Cause why would anyone
Want to be with someone
As ****** up as
Me.

Why me?
Why would i fall for you?
Every time i see you.
Its just beauty in my eyes...
Beauty, like never before...
Beauty you don't recognize yourself.
Your so insecure but yet beautiful.
I don't understand.
And i want you to not be insecure.
There are people that would **** for your looks.
I mean,
I would.

Eyes you can see through
And notice her pain,
Pain that could ****.
But shes making through it,
What you cant see through through her eyes
Is shes holding on by a tiny thread.
She tries to end  this pain but.
More scars appear,
She thinks she cant do it.
So she slits her wrist,
She wakes up in  the hospital and says
"I can't do  this"
She needs love.
2 days later they send her to the mental  hospital.
2 weeks later they send her home.
Shes still on that tiny thread but barely holding on.
She wants to take a walk.
Her mom says "no"
She gets upset and tells her she hates her.
She sneaks out of the house and goes to a bridge
She jumps off.
She wakes up still alive.
She screams
"I CAN'T DO THIS"
She needs love.
Shes bullied
Shes abused
Shes emotionally abused
She cuts
She hates herself.
She thinks no one likes her.
But.
She needs love,
She needs love,
She needs love.

I Admit.
I was afraid
to love,
Not just to love.
But to love her.
For she was a stunning mystery.
She carried things deep inside her that
no one has yet to understand.
And i was afraid to fail
like the others.

Hidden behind theses eyes
Is a broken girl.
Shes lost and deeply hurt,
She wants to find the one
To save her.
But no one could risk this battle.
You may not notice.
But this girl is
dead.

Are you okay?
"Yes, I'm fine"
How you Doing?
"Good"
How was your Day?
"Fine"
How are you at home?
"Cool, I guess"
Hows your love life?
"I don't know"

Guess what!
I'm not fine when i say i'm fine!
I'm not doing good when i say i am!
My day was not fine when i say it was!
When i say i'm good at home i'm not!
And my love life is ******* terrible!
There is the Real Answers!

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Does it make sense when i say.
"I Love You"