I no longer say I love you at the end of the day,
finally you understand I do not feel that way.
I've been silently  begging for you to tell me
that I was never really a part of this family.
This is how I'm feeling.
And I'm not certain I am healing.
Some days I crumble to the floor
from the pain that  is settled in my core.
One day I won't come back,
for in my heart, you've left a crack.