being so near to you i can sense how close you are with every fiber of my being but i am frozen i try to move against my pain and reach out to you to just step across the stream but i am frozen beneath the surface a river courses through my veins begging for you, pleading but i am frozen now i have so many dams made of sharp ice though naturally i flow freely but i am frozen i want to be with you i want to be in your arms *i want to be thawed but i am frozen~
I actually cried writing this.
Because I hate myself for what they did to me.
I want to be thawed, but I'm having trouble melting the ice... .