I wish I knew how to explain this.
This feeling of disgust and emptiness.
I didn't even look at myself in the mirror once today.
I knew my reflection would only make this feeling
more prominent.

People say I'm
beautiful
and
thinner
than I once was,
but I don't see it.

I pretend I do, but
I don't.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life.