She walks with friends, but still alone
Hiding behind drinks and laughs
Doing anything to shut out reality
To conceal the truth

They think she's brave
They think she's strong
They don't even know her
And that's just the way she wants it

She's ashamed of her past
Of things she couldn't help
People she couldn't save
Scars she can't erase

She's merely a girl
A girl who's lost so much
That she is blind to what happiness really is
To what living really means

She used to be sick
She used to fear that every day
Every painstaking, torturous day
Would be her last

But she lived
She's one of the lucky ones
So maybe she is strong
But not in the way they think

She lost her grandfather as a child
Never really got to know him
But she hears he loved her
And she thinks she loved him

She tried using boys to fill the hole in her heart
To ease her pain
And make her happy
And help her feel

But they never put her first
They never really knew
How she needed them
Why she wanted them

Her father passed on a few years back
Fell victim to the same plague that nearly took her life
Why him?
Why then?

She was lost
She was broken
She ignored the pain
She tried to bury it

But she's just a girl
A girl who loves too much
But loses more
And cannot understand

Her mother pressures her
Says she needs a man
Someone to fix her
Someone to make her settle down

But she's not ready to admit she's ready
That she can finally move on
Because it's easier this way
It's simpler to ignore than to feel

So for now she's lost
Shutting out those who care
Running away from the truth
Hiding behind drinks and laughs