I was addicted to it, in its entirety. I was addicted to the feel of it in my hand And to the way it felt on my pale skin, I was addicted to its scent And to its welcoming friendliness. But most of all I was addicted to the undeniable escape it gave me, An escape like no other, An escape that couldn't be offered by anything Or anyone Else. An escape that my friends could not provide That my family didn't understand And that my enemies loathed the thought of. Because as I drew it across my pale skin, I forgot about the mental pain I was going through And focused On the physical pain I was forcing upon myself. I replaced my mental pain With my physical pain And it felt good. Too good. Slowly but surely I grew more and more addicted To its sweet sweet scent And its blissful feel And its so called escape. The only problem is I don't want to escape from the mental pains anymore I want to escape from the mental torture Which forces me to pick up that blade From time to time when I'm feeling low. I don't want to force the pain upon myself anymore But the pleasure That comes with that pain Makes it impossible to stop. It's addictive... Highly addictive.
So I suppose this is about a battle with self harm.