I'm alive but barely breathing,
Troubled lungs with time receding.
Oceans swelling deep within me,
Close my eyelids, open now free.

Forbidden love demands a loser,
Better I go down without her.
This ships sinking, fate demanding.
Losing altitude, plane's crash landing.

Plane kiss ground, knife into skin,
****** water, sharks, I see fin.
Feeding frenzy, ripped into shreds,
Liquid racing, childhood sleds.

Winter wonderland, now stained red,
What the **** is wrong with my head?
Cleanse in shower, I'm still *****,
Put my mask on "Yeah I'm sturdy".

Headphones on, I won't hear a thing,
Never mind dad's started yelling.
Out the door, maybe if I run.
Dusty pavement, sparks from a gun.

How the hell did I end up here?
Outside her house, with no one else near.
Ring the bell? No I'm a coward.
Once again I'm overpowered.

Call a friend and smoke some grass,
I think of how I've been an ***.
If I stepped in her shoes I'd see,
Never mind they're too small for me.

Return home, collapse into bed,
Swirling thoughts inside of my head.
Reality hurts when it bites,
I'll try and sleep it off tonight.