Everything I can't show is what's going to put me right back in the hospital This blatant cycle of denial is far beyond getting out of control The pileup looks physically and mentally insurmountable How can one person run into so much trouble? It's unmeasurable Eyes forced shut, but it's not always safer in there, alone and vulnerable Behind a pane of pain, only view is through this soulless porthole window Find it hard to dream when life itself seems just about impossible I've lost control of this roadside attraction freak show carnival It's too much to juggle, And that's why I struggle