what kind of person fantasizes about being sicker than they already are? man, it's time I realize life is worth it and I've made it this far when I can't forget, can't forgive, and get stuck tires spinning, thoughts running, strength thinning out of control what role does my faith play in feeling whole? I wish I could erase this hole eating away inside but then I might just feel more empty I try to cut through the feelings by cutting through the skin that covers this lifeless body the razor shreds my flesh instead of fleshing out all of the chaos inside this mess of a mind