no one really understands but i get it i dont understand either why this ghost in my body why this ghost in my body writhes and tosses and turns and makes me sob and weep shrill and high yet silently, unobserved i dont really get it either why this ghost in my body falls in love with everyone it meets and makes me green with envy and a chilling blue of loneliness that makes it hard to see anything other than red and rose no one really understands but thats okay i dont understand either.