is it my fault, that I love my mother more than my father?
every time he breaks my heart, the cracks are filled with bitterness and resentment
every healing hug can only do so much
when you scream and push me against walls
every broken "i'm sorry"
means nothing when it happens again
and again, and again
all i want is to love you
but it is so hard to love the one
you fear
it is so hard to love the one
that has looked at you
with nothing but hate in his eyes
it is so hard to love the one
that pushed you down when you asked for help

so is it my fault, if I love my mother more than my father?