my eyes shot open and terror gripped my bones I breathed heavily through my nose, eyes scanning my dark room. with my chest heaving, my fingers fumbled for my phone; with a click the brightness illuminated my face quickly, I found your name but I hesitated, fearful of disturbing you, bogging you down with my own horror. but I had no other choice. at that time you were my only source of calm. the dial rung one, two, three times and when you answered I felt relief. hearing your voice my breath at last evened, and my heart slowed. you comforted me whispering I was okay and you were right there. the gentleness found in your essence, I relaxed. your quiet presence held me closely under the bend of tired vocal cords. without any question you decided to stay with me and as if I had come and crawled in beside you in your bed, you planted a kiss on my head and wrapped me in your warm embrace. soothing me you surfaced the calm within me and there was no maybe in your commitment to stay. hushing, quieting, lulling and rocking me to sleep I felt your protection, I knew I was safe, and the safety in your arms will never disappear.