Midnight. I am lying in my bed unable to sleep. My head is spinning like every night. Why should I continue living? I finally fall asleep, dreaming of the sweet, red blood running down my veins, dripping on my bathroom floor… drip, drip, drip. Soon there is a dark red lake which drowns me ... I travel far away to an unknown land. Different from everything I have known before. Slowly everything around me gets silent and dark. My mind is finally able to rest. I have waited so long for this moment. Sweet dreams.