My family hates me & I have no friends I be myself, it's not good enough Reflect, make changes, it's not good enough Call my bluff Ask me your fluff questions Tell me I'm wrong Pointing out qualities that are good
I'll counter with the facts of my life Show you the lack of love, I have for myself How I have dealt with guilt Attempting to outrun shame Embarrassed by my thoughts Tootie ought to sit down for an hour session My ‘how to ****-up your life lessons’
I count my blessings They never amount to happiness I'm in a place where joy is fleeting While your all celebrating with festive cheer I'll be over here, in my familiar sunken place Once a pillar of strength, on the outside Is a mere shell, mimicking the motions of perceived normality
To those that think I am a friend or consider me family There's still time for me to prove you wrong It will dawn upon you & you'll question… What was I ever drawn to? You'll cast away your heavy dark shadow While I wrap myself it's embrace Lonely is my mind, heart & soul With no family or friends to fill that hole Behold, my inner honest thoughts