I feel like a puddle in front of a school. Having children jump in me one after another as they see me on the ground. But every time you jump in a puddle, the water disperses.. the puddle gets smaller from the water splashing out. And oh my, far too many feet have dipped their toes into the hollows of my being for me to feel functional. I feel as if I’m shrinking like that puddle in a sense. Tainted by ***** shoes making permanent alterations to my pre-existing form. Maybe sometimes there’s no “adaptive responses.” The only way for the puddle to fill and grow again, is for more rain to fall. But there are no clouds in this sky of “me.”
A bit of a ramble, but frankly I don’t know how else to describe the way I’m feeling tonight. Sometimes “nothing” says volumes- but it also is just that... nothing