I have all I ever wanted
It is a dream come true
All I ever asked for
A family, a home, a life so full

It is beautiful as I look in
Sunshine beaming and sleek
Like heaven on earth made just for me
Nothing more to seek

Or so I thought

Darkness swept over my eyes
The agitation hit suddenly.
Crawling itching skin, as if I was sick
Infected with a virus no one could see

Happiness where did you go?

I saw sunshine and smiles
Everyone beautiful as God or Goddess
Then suddenly like a swarm of flies
I was taken under pulled down into darkness

It was like being eaten alive
Held under and drowning in death
Pulled on, dragged down, held there
Clawing, gasping for a single breath

I watch it all from outside my tomb

As I watch myself pleading for help
I see dirt falling on my head
I have nothing to give to assist
I have no rope to send

There is nothing left to give

I can only watch from the outside
Numbness fills my soul
With total fear and terror that I cannot feel
A loss of all control

A million hands pull you down
Sinking numbness suffocates like dirt
The darkness burning as you breath it in
Knowing pain without feeling the hurt

Still fighting with health at zero

I watch myself die over and over
Only to find that I am still alive
The swarm bites and claws
Will help ever arrive?

I don’t believe it anymore

Somehow with nothing left to give
I am clawing, gasping to breath
How long can I go.
Guess I'll have to watch and see.