Exhausted from rapid obsessing All I feel is aggressive doubt To darkest hidden corners My mind, heart, it flows throughout.
Deepest wounds make a home Between buried thoughts in brain Bleeding steady streams of uncertainty I show nobody my pain.
Stomach knotted tight with effort I wait for someone to notice Difference in how I speak I am in the background, something's amiss.
I am shouting "help!" with a silent mouth In this world colors do not belong Wondering why I overthink each action And why feelings persistently steer me wrong.
Get attatched very easily To the coldest, wicked, damaging touch Let guys I fell for destroy soft parts Denied truth because I loved so much
Pretty sure there is something wrong with me A mutation somewhere in DNA It's like no matter how great life is going Somehow everything still appears grey.
Transparent, see right through my skin Walking through crowds alone Dreaming of better days Harboring thoughts I own.
Long to travel far from here Can't sleep with all this stress My mind my biggest enemy Memory I can't evict or put to rest.
Mistakes coursing through blood Screaming to get on the right track Frightened I am not capable of succeeding Failures precariously balanced in a stack.
Images as clear as the instant they occurred Until eyes distort edges, greatly exaggerate Have to write to distract accelerating thoughts Words and stanzas my reliable escape.
Always there whenever, wherever I am at My brain a dangerous nest Sometimes the ideas I overanalyze Become tangled and knotted then manifest.
Wishing to be a better person My value I cannot comprehend Instead focus solely on flaws Insecurity never seems to end.
I'm insecure, but what do I have to be secure about?