i used to be determined to stay quiet about the pain and desolation that you inflicted upon me; to live alone with my sufferings silently—even though, i still want to believe that you didn’t do it deliberately—but you’re too afraid to pay the price and face the fact that you’ve killed me in a way. so you fled cowardly and left me feeling lost and pondering my own sanity. but now, as a revenge for your laughter and smile while i’m aching, i want the whole world to know that you’ve left me a permanent damage somewhere in my soul; you’ve hurt me in the slowest, the subtlest way possible— that not even my ingenuity could save me this time.